[He takes longer than necessary while he's gone, his hands shaking too much to pour himself a proper drink. He ends up breathing shakily, pressing his palms to his clenched shut eyes in order to will down the tears]
[When he goes back out to the main room again, he's 'calm', but keeps his distance, leaning back against the wall and not able to look at him for long, but also not leaving. To answer your dumbass question: no, he very much does not want to be alone.]