1/2
[He feared Porthos feeling neglected, feeling left out. Or worrying Aramis would eventually be heartbroken, since nothing in this land is permanent.]
[But...]
All this time, whenever we talked about him, it felt... I suppose "distant" would be obvious to say. Back home, I cannot speak of him much, I cannot say who he is to anyone. And here, speaking about "my son" when he was a world away...
[Now he's holding him, has him right there, can say what he wants to.]