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Merlin said something similar, you know - before. [About how blaming himself isn't going to help] When this land changed and we were all given different lives... after it was over, all I could do was blame myself for my part in all of it. Of course, he didn't like that I would--
I asked him, what was I meant to do in this land, if I can't ever hope to return home. I'll never see Camelot again. And... what more could I do, other than replay my own mistakes over and over again. It seems this land delights in throwing all of my failings and mistakes back in my face.
He said that the reason I was here, then, was to be here with him.