I will not claim to be responsible for all she's done -- her choices were her own, her actions fueled by her own desires. To say it's all my doing denies that she has her own will and her own choices. And there are things for which I can't forgive her, even if I wish I could. Even if I wish things were different. But make no mistake, Merlin. She hurt me, and my kingdom, and the people I love -- but I hurt her first.