Reiji is fighting his demons (rotten_heart) wrote in kaleido_threads, @ 2021-07-23 22:31:00 |
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Entry tags: | !post: narrative, astaroth, reiji shiratori |
Who: Reiji & Astaroth
What: Learning fears and truths
When: The night of July 23rd right after his message
Where: His room, 216, in Indifference
Status: Narrative, Finished
Warnings: Possession, mild body horror- mentions of horns, nails, & teeth growing, Spoilers for Chapter 1 & Episode 1 of Blue Exorcist, Blue exorcist possession head canons as well as general Blue Exorcist head canons, mild descriptions of dissociative like situations, feelings?, if you want a soundtrack for the narrative- this, damn 1,606 words,
Reiji. Don't. I won't let you.
His phone fell from his hand and he stumbled against the wall. Astaroth had never forced himself forth so hard, he was taking advantaged of Reiji's weak will in the moment. Reiji tried to resist him, but he felt himself growing weaker. His nails turned black and grew into long claws, his spine stretched as a tail grew and swiped through the air. His teeth turned into sharp fangs and Reiji slipped away as the horns split from his head and curled. Astaroth stood up straight and picked up the phone before locking it. He sat on the bed. The coal tar that were wandering the room flocked to him and hung off his horns and nestled into his hair. Astaroth's tail flicked back at forth while he stared off at the window. Small white mushrooms started to grow in the corners of the ceiling. "Wake up Reiji."
It was weird to see you body being controlled by someone else. Reiji felt like he was suspended air. Like that moment right as you realize your falling, but you never actually hit the ground. Despite it, he felt his anger boil. "What the hell Astaroth?! I'm going to take this body back and I'm marching right to him and you're getting exorcised!" Reiji fought back against him, trying to feel the bed below him or the coal tar that were brushing his fingers. Anything he could get a grip on to pull himself back to control.
"Reiji stop it. Just listen to what I have to say." Astaroth's voice was quiet and sincere, "You can have your body back if you just listen to what I have to say."
"How do I know you're not just lying to me! Demons do that all the time!"
"I'm not lying to you, but if you don't want to trust me then I will have no choice. Do you have last words you would like to tell those you call your friends?"
"What the hell?! I told you! I'll get my damn body back I have before!"
"Because I let you. You have no strength to exorcise me. It's a miracle that you even have the strength to resist me. This conversation is pointless." He sounded tired and sad, enough that it made Reiji pause. "If you don't wish to listen to me then I will force you to sleep. Goodbye Reiji."
"Wait! Don't. What. What do you want to say. I'll hear you out. This is clearly important to you." Astaroth was quiet. Reiji held his breath. He watched his body shift and his hand opened up to hold a small gathering of coal tar. They settled in his palm and rolled across his fingers, falling over the sides of his hand and down onto his lap. He wished he could feel them. He could imagine it so clearly. They always had the most light touch like when you had a hair on your arm. It always tickled when the burrowed onto the folds of his hood and sleeves. This time... he couldn't feel any of them.
"Things here are different than they were last time." Astaroth's voice made Reiji loose his focus on the coal tar. It was so deep it almost sounded like it echoed.
"Well no shit." Reiji regretted it when he said it. He closed his eyes expecting to be shut out. Nothing ever happened. Slowly Reiji opened his eyes. They were still looking at the Coal Tar.
"I meant I have no connection to Gehenna here." Astaroth corrected. Reiji's eyes widened. Astaroth at least had told him about that, the home of demons. He was trapped here just like he was then... "I cannot feel it's presence. I cannot sense how to return home. I am stuck here. So do not think I am possessing you simply because I want to. I am more than happy with the form I occupy in Gehenna, I don't care for such material desires like my siblings. However, I cannot interact with Assiah if I do not have a host. I had a task I needed to complete to assist with Lord Satan's plans, and for that I needed a host. I suspected that Rin Okumura was the son of Satan for a while, and your anger provided the perfect caveat for possession. I never expected you to be so perfect for my power. You're naturally resistant, something that comes so rarely in the humans of Assiah. That's why I picked you. I gave you a temptaint so you could perceive me and slowly I worked away until I could possess you. When I saw those glorious blue flames I knew my suspicion was correct so I tried to take the son of Satan home to Gehenna, but I was exorcised. Only through your anger was I able to possess you again and continue my mission. Lord Satan himself made an appearance and I was no longer needed. Thus I was exorcised again. To a Demon King it doesn't matter if we are exorcised. We simply return to Gehenna. You cannot kill a concept." Astaroth grew silent for a while. Almost as if he was musing to himself.
Reiji was quiet as well. All he could think about was that day. When he woke up again he'd been at home. Apparently the priests had sent him off home with some of the staff. Later he found out that Father Fujimoto had died. That whole ordeal always seemed like some sort of dream. If it hadn't been for Astaroth's return he would have chalked it up to be.
"Those idiot exorcists gave you blessings in hope to ward me off. I had to chip them away again until I could return. I retained my mission to getting Rin Okumura to Gehenna to please Lord Satan, but then you came to that accursed Eerie Harbor and I was pulled with you. Now that we have been pulled to yet another world where I cannot feel Gehenna's presence, my original goal is for naught where we stand. Thus I don't care to try and possess you. All I ask Reiji, is that you don't exorcise me. I cannot be sure where I will go this time without Gehenna, and I don't want to die."
Reiji was speechless. This was the first time Astaroth had expressed any kind of emotion besides nagging or snark. Let alone fear. It was something Reiji could relate to so ironically. Fearing death from the very position he was in now, at the mercy of a demon possessing him. "So there's no point then? You're just going to freeload in the back of my head for the rest of my life? I mean what if we never go back? I'm just stuck with you?"
"Yes. Unless you'd rather me be in control and we will see how many years it will take your body to become consummed with mushrooms. That can also be an outcome. I do wonder how long it will be until they begin to grow from your skin."
"Stop it. I don't want to hear about that it's creepy." Reiji frowned. He really did have a shit straw in this debate. He sighed, "Fine... I won't exorcise you. But! I want a damn fair say in all of this Astaroth." if the demon didn't agree then he'd play along until Astaroth had a moment of silence and he'd head straight to Father Fujimoto. "Do we have a damn deal?"
"Isn't that the demon's line?"
"Astaroth."
"Fine. What do you want?"
"First of all stop sassing me. Second I don't want to keep living with the constant fear you're going to possess me for expressing a fucking emotion! So we have to figure some shit out about this possession crap OK?! Either stop it or ask if you absolutely have to or something. And third I want fucking privacy Astaroth. It's creepy as hell to take a shower and know you're fucking there watching me! Just give me some fucking respect if you're going to be so damn dependent on my body!"
"Why would I watch you shower? That's disgusting."
"ASTAROTH STAY ON TOPIC!" Reiji yelled. He could feel that his cheeks were hot. This was such a fucking embarrassing conversation. Talking to some thousand year old demon about bathing. "That's what I want ok?! I want my private life to stay private."
"That can be arranged. I don't really care about your personal life anyway. I can sleep the same way you do, so I'll give you your privacy. I'll agree to your demands, but the sassing one. Not if you deserve it, but I will be civil. As for the possession, I'll play along. However I won't hesitate to force myself forward if you try something to get me killed."
"Fine. Now let me have control back."
Reiji was surprised to be in control again. He almost didn't think Astaroth would actually do it. "Oh and one more thing. Stop it with the stupid mushrooms."
"That I cannot help. They grow on their own."
Reiji groaned and rolled over on his bed. The coal tar were knocked into the air from his movements. Slowly they settled down, clumping into Koks as he shut his eyes. His head was aching, as it usually did after this bullshit. He reached for his pillow and buried his face in it. I'm stuck with him forever... At least he had some boundaries.