She was the last name on your barrel, Percy. Before Cassandra got added. How do you we know that if you'd killed her then, something worse wouldn't have happened for the fact that you'd taken off more of the list? We can speculate and regret all we want, but what's done is done. She is dead, and you are not. And that's what we need to focus on.
I asked The Raven Queen to help. Told her that you were worth than to die at the hands of your tormentors, and she... antagonized me? Said that it was odd for me to be so protective over someone I'd held such a grudge against, that it was odd for me to care so much, much less think you worth that amount of consideration. That's actually.... It's what made me realize I'd forgiven you. That I had, awhile ago, that I'd just never said it because I thought we had the time. I thought we would have the time, and I'll admit, part of me wanted to be petty, liked being petty. But I should have told you.
I was only angry because being angry was better than being empty, Perc... When I thought it was Vex that was at fault, I was happy to let it stand, to just feel the emptiness, but you gave me a target, and I took advantage. And I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I mean it with everything I have in me. You've always been my best friend. And I've loved you nearly as long. I was a stupid, selfish idiot for turning on you like that for as long as I did.
And I think I might have fucked up. Beyond what I already have.