I wanted to die. Back home. I wanted to die. I watched Zoom murder my father. He made me watch because he thought it would make me more like him. And I begged him to kill me instead. But he shoved his arm through my father's chest. And instead of letting me stop him, my friends locked me up because they didn't trust me or believe in me. And I'm still not over that. I don't know if I will be. And that nearly got Joe, the only other parent I had, killed. I had to sacrifice a part of myself to stop him from destroying the multiverse. They call it a time remnant. And I would have let myself die instead, if I could have done it without anyone else getting hurt. And stopping him doesn't change the fact that I feel empty and hollow inside.
But here, with Len, I feel mostly okay most days. I hate myself less. I would even say I'm happy most of the time. He makes my life better. Iris too, but she wasn't here until recently. He was. So maybe stop judging one of the only parts of my life that's keeping me together.