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First, and I'm going to establish this now so you don't try to argue with me later. Don't apologize for talking to me, Barry. I may be someone who generally likes to avoid feelings like the plague but since we've agreed to enter into an aspect of relationship which doesn't involve shooting or hitting each other, I think it's safe to say you can lay it on me when you need to.
You wanted to try and save your family, Barry. Even I can relate to that. You made the tough call because you had to. And maybe you couldn't save your mother but eventually you saved your father. That's something. If he didn't think he could be your father and let you be the Flash at the same time, that's on him and not on you. There isn't a Flash without Barry Allen. Look at all the other metas. There's a reason more than a few are Rogues, or worse. They're not like you. Being a criminal is easier than being a hero.
Maybe. Maybe not. No one can make that call except for you. Only you can decide what makes you happy. Even I don't know the answer to that question yet.
Look. Our first trip in time we wen't back to 1975. I stole a jumpship. Played at stealing something but it wasn't for me. In 1975 my father was sent to prison the first time for stealing the same emerald I went out of my way to steal for him. Thought if I did it, maybe he wouldn't go to prison. Maybe my life would be different. Mom would stick around. Lisa wouldn't have a broken heart. I could have killed him right there. Saved a lot of trouble. But Lisa wouldn't have been born. I made a choice, and it didn't make a difference. Dad still got arrested. I'm still me. So maybe some lives are just supposed to be fucked up, kid. You learn to make the best out of what you've got.
So here's what you're going to do. We're going to stop talking about all of this. You're not going to be the Flash for a few hours, I'm not going to think about my shitty excuse for a father and I'm going to make dinner. No muss, no fuss. Just you and me and the rest of the world can chill out for a few hours.