Kara | Grant
I know you didn't mean to. I just really wish you'd kept your mouth shut this time. And you can't say I won't because you can't control what happens. I know you're trying to make me feel better but I know neither of us can stop this place from sending you back if it wants to. Knowing what I want doesn't change that. Loving you as much as I do doesn't change that. I could still wake up tomorrow and find you gone and there's not a damn thing either of us can do about that. This, it's just made it all the more real to me and it's just too much right now. After spending two months without you the thought of another day just hurts, especially when it could change you somehow.