InsaneJournal

I see everything coming, but I didn't see this. I've been here five hours and twenty three minutes and I already hate everything about it. No offense to anyone here or anything. I finally had something good in my life and it's gone. I act so tough all the time but no one really likes being alone, which is what I am. Again. I also have no idea why I feel the need to write all this down, guess this place doesn't like people keeping their private thoughts private.

Sometimes when Nick and I would walk around Hong Kong I'd see other girls my age. Girls with nothing to worry about, girls with their faces made up and their clothes brand new. Who had homes and families. I always try to act like I don't like them, that I think they're vapid and shallow. The truth is I get so jealous of them sometimes. To be able to go through life thinking the worst thing ever is some boy in your class doesn't like you back. I'm thirteen and I saw myself die for weeks straight. I don't think there's any going back from that. How can there be.

They want me to go to school. I've never actually been to school. I don't even really know what to expect. I'm sure I'll hate it though. I hate a lot of things.

My name is Cassie, and today sucks.