People keep saying that I do. And maybe they're right, but they never feel like excuses. They feel like solid obstacles, things being dropped down in my path that I can't navigate around. Things that people keep saying shouldn't hold me back, shouldn't influence or alter my decisions, that have no bearing or weight on anything, but that I can't see as anything but.
Because I kept making the choices that I thought would lead be back in the right direction, but all they did was end up pushing me further and further away. And I don't understand how. I don't beyond that I just don't know how to do the right thing... so why even try if no one is going to tell me what I keep doing wrong?