Ward | Jessica.
Untrustworthy would have been a step up from where I ended up in everyone's estimation. But it sounds like your reality has far more to deal with than ours yet. Aliens haven't factored in that much.
And we were holding back. Both of us. Them because they didn't trust me with their information. Me because I was scared of what they would do if I told it all to them at once, and they decided I had nothing left of value. It rendered out badly because they went into situations blind because I didn't know enough to tell them what they needed to be prepared for. And they thought, I imagine, that I didn't really want to help.
And then my brother got involved. SHIELD was already on shaky ground politically, having been disavowed by the government. And Christian was always looking for some way to bolster his public profile. What better way than reining in the remains of SHIELD? Politicians are always looking out for number one, though, and SHIELD wouldn't have gotten him nearly as much as HYDRA. Even if it would just be a show trial.
Coulson made a bargain to hand me over to my brother. Said that I was delusional if I ever thought that he was going to let me be par of the team again, if I thought I could do anything to make up for what I had done. I was only still alive because I was useful, but now, my brother was more useful.
Nevermind that my brother's a sociopath. The second he was done with me, he would have turned his attention right back to SHIELD and run them right into the ground.