Ward | Jessica.
No parent should treat their child like that, like they're more important as a object than a person. But if you still had limits, you weren't a monster. Not that I imagine I have to tell you that. If you were with SHIELD and the Avengers, you figured it out on your own. Or had help...
I tried to cut it out.
I didn't see any way I could fix things. There was too much. Ten years, the ripple effect from even the smallest things. That combined with not feeling like I had any identity with Garrett dead, I wanted to die. So I tried to kill myself. Three times over a four month period. Being constantly monitored, though, they wouldn't let me. I was too valuable as a potential source of information. Not that I had told them anything. Guilt, residual loyalty... It wasn't until it finally dawned on me what Garrett had truly done to me that I felt like I might be able to turn things around, fix what I had done, even if I had to spend the rest of my life making up for it.
So I agreed to talk, to help them however I could.