InsaneJournal

DAISY JOHNSON || QUAKE (callmequake) wrote in jurassiccitynet,
@ 2015-10-12 22:48:00

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What the actual fuck?

Bucky? What the hell did you do this time?

	callmequake 2015-10-14 04:06 am UTC (link)
	And what happened to them? I bet they got hurt. Turned mean and hard. Empathy is lovely in theory but it can't always be what leads. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	survives 2015-10-14 04:17 am UTC (link)
	Me. I happened to them. My desperation, my fear, my inability to break away or say no even when I knew it needed to be said. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	callmequake 2015-10-14 04:21 am UTC (link)
	It's a mean world we live in. You have to be mean sometimes to survive. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	survives 2015-10-14 04:22 am UTC (link)
	I know. I spent thirty years doing it. Until I realized that surviving isn't always enough. Unfortunately, I realized it about 6 months too late. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	callmequake 2015-10-14 04:31 am UTC (link)
	Then you know. Empathy isn't always an option. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	survives 2015-10-14 04:36 am UTC (link)
	No. I know. Sometimes you have to harden. You have to shut things out. You have to figure out how not to feel. But life's empty like that. It's cold and hard and lonely. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	callmequake 2015-10-14 04:38 am UTC (link)
	A cold, hard, lonely life in exchange for keeping other people safe? I'll take it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	survives 2015-10-14 04:39 am UTC (link)
	And I can't do it anymore. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	callmequake 2015-10-14 04:41 am UTC (link)
	It's not the life for everyone. I was groomed for it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	survives 2015-10-14 04:47 am UTC (link)
	So was I. Five years, plus official SHIELD training, and ten years on the job. Even if I wasn't as SHIELD as everyone thought, I did my job. And I was good at it. But I can't do it anymore. I can't look at everything like a mission, tackle every problem like it's the end of the world. I can't treat everything and every one like they're a threat. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	callmequake 2015-10-14 04:51 am UTC (link)
	SHIELD is in my blood since Nick found me. I might not be the Director anymore but it's always going to be a part of who I am. I can't turn off my powers and people like me don't get to walk away. So, this is my life and always will be. Until my inevitable violent death. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	survives 2015-10-14 04:54 am UTC (link)
	And I'm just a kidnapped delinquent with nowhere else to go. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	callmequake 2015-10-14 04:57 am UTC (link)
	'm sure I would have ended up worse. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	survives 2015-10-14 04:58 am UTC (link)
	Without SHIELD? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	callmequake 2015-10-14 05:02 am UTC (link)
	Yep. I'd be dead or worse like my dad. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	survives 2015-10-14 05:07 am UTC (link)
	He wasn't so bad. I mean, the version I met. Our Daisy's father. A little loopy and desperate, but for understandable reasons considering what had been done to his family. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	callmequake 2015-10-14 05:14 am UTC (link)
	One time my Dad blackmailed NYC with a hijacked tanker because he was having a tantrum. Also, he used to sell the serum that gave him powers to street kids. Those are just the small things. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	survives 2015-10-14 05:15 am UTC (link)
	Wow. So. Massive difference there. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	callmequake 2015-10-14 05:18 am UTC (link)
	A kinder gentler Mr. Hyde? Your world is weird. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	Ward \| Kara knowmyself 2015-10-14 05:03 am UTC (link)
	Grant, where are you right now? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ward \| Kara survives 2015-10-14 05:09 am UTC (link)
	In the office at the shelter. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ward \| Kara knowmyself 2015-10-14 05:15 am UTC (link)
	Don't go anywhere, we're coming to you. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Ward \| Kara knowmyself 2015-10-14 05:38 am UTC (link)
	You're not alone, Grant. You're never going to be alone again, not as long as I have any say in the matter. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ward \| Kara survives 2015-10-14 05:48 am UTC (link)
	I don't deserve you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ward \| Kara knowmyself 2015-10-14 05:49 am UTC (link)
	Yes you do, now stop talking like that. I'm worried about you. (Reply to this) (Parent)