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Tweak says, "Winter is coming."

Taryon Darrington (uglycrier) wrote in jurassiccitynet,
@ 2017-03-10 22:21:00

Entry tags:

percy de rolo, scanlan shorthalt, taryon darrington, vax'ildan, vex'ahlia

Voice Post
I... well, I suppose I wanted an adventure. I'm not too sure what sort of adventure this is but...

Is anyone else here? Jumbo? Little Elf Girl? Little Elf Boy? Antlers? Percy?

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	perc'ildan. daggerdagger 2017-03-11 11:05 pm UTC (link)
	And with the option to leave if we need to. I know you didn't, Perc. That's why I said. And I know. I know, Perc. I know what it's like, and I wish I could do something to change what happened. I don't want to die, either. But I've got to accept my fate, if this is what it is. At least here... At least here, we don't have to worry about any of that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	perc'ildan. pepperbox 2017-03-12 08:40 am UTC (link)
	Yes. I hate that I'm like this. I just wish my brain would work right. And fuck acceptance. When have we ever accepted anything? Yeah. You're safe here. And you'll come back if something happens. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

perc'ildan.

daggerdagger
2017-03-12 08:52 am UTC (link)

Your brain works fine for you, Percy. I love your brain exactly like it is, issues and all. I just wish it didn't hurt you so much. That all of this wasn't going to hurt you guys so much.

I don't think I'm coming back, Perc. I hate saying it out loud, but I've... felt it for months. I'm her champion of fate. She picked me because of my tendency to avoid death in situations where I shouldn't have been able to. If I actually can't escape my fate...

I don't think a ritual is going to get us out of this one.

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perc'ildan.

pepperbox
2017-03-12 08:56 am UTC (link)

My brain is a mess, but I'm slowly learning how to work productively with that mess. Love hurts, Vax. It hurts us because we love you. I don't regret that, even with the pain.

I know. I didn't want to say it, but there's always been more risk. This isn't just about doing a ritual. It's about convincing the Raven Queen that this isn't your fate.

And I am not certain we will be able to do that.

I need to say this, because I've wanted to since the fight with Raishan and I owe you the same honesty. I don't know that I would have come back if it had come down to a second ritual.

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perc'ildan.

daggerdagger
2017-03-12 09:04 am UTC (link)

I don't regret that, either. I love all of you more than I ever thought I'd love anyone other than Vex. And I wouldn't trade that for anything in this world or any other.

I was afraid of something like that. I mean, it's going to get harder and harder each time we die. And I know... Our big job's done. And what else is there to keep you in the world when you have... so much more on the other side.

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perc'ildan.

pepperbox
2017-03-12 09:34 am UTC (link)

I never thought I would love anyone. I thought I was too broken for it. And for a long time...I was. But you lot have helped me remember what it's like to care about people.

You don't have to compete with that. You don't. It isn't about having more there. You all are enough. Yes, I miss my family, but you guys are my family too. I just...I'm so tired. And there are parts of me that were lost in the first ritual. And I don't know that I could do it again.

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	perc'ildan. daggerdagger 2017-03-12 09:51 am UTC (link)
	We've all helped put each other back together in ways that we never really anticipated. And I'm grateful for that. For all of you. I wouldn't be the person I am now without all of you. We'll just have to do our best to keep you alive from here on out, then. Or... they will. At least. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	perc'ildan. pepperbox 2017-03-12 10:17 am UTC (link)
	None of us would be who we are now without one another. Don't talk like that, please. We don't know. Let's just pretend it will go well. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	perc'ildan. daggerdagger 2017-03-12 10:20 am UTC (link)
	Maybe. I guess we can hope. The Raven Queen is very hard to understand sometimes when it comes to what she expects or anticipates. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	perc'ildan. pepperbox 2017-03-12 02:53 pm UTC (link)
	Hope has kept us going so far. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	perc'ildan. daggerdagger 2017-03-12 04:42 pm UTC (link)
	Really no sense to give up on it now. Even with the longshots. Maybe especially. I really don't want to die for good. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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