"You think I don't know that?" This time the words were snapped, forceful and angry with sharp edges. His hands shook, vibrated, as he tried not to let the darker emotions that he'd been holding in since he'd woken up in that hospital room overwhelm him. "You think I don't remember that every day? I'm the fastest cripple alive. How's that for a joke? I could run faster than anything and now I can't even walk. I was so concerned with stopping Zoom, with not letting him steal my speed...I didn't think he would steal my legs."
"So yeah," he said. "I'm broken. I'm useless. I can't stop Zoom and I can't stop anyone or help anyone any more. I can't do anything." The words felt like they were choking him, burning and toxic and painful to say. Somewhere, underneath the overwhelming negative feelings, he knew he wasn't being fair to Snart. This wasn't his fault. But it felt almost cathartic to say these things. "All I ever wanted to do was help people. My speed...it made me better. And now I'm...nothing. Less than nothing. How am I supposed to go from that to...this?"
He trailed off, running a still shaky hand through his hair. "I'm sorry," the words were so soft he almost wasn't sure he'd actually said them. "I'm sorry...I didn't mean to...throw all of that in your face. It's not fair. You didn't do this to me." He ignored the question about whether he was as broken on the inside as he clearly was on the outside. He was pretty sure he'd made that all too clear with his meltdown. Instead, he focused on the easier question.
"I fought Zoom," he said, closing his eyes against the memories of the other speedster beating him, dragging him around like a rag doll. He still had panic attacks sometimes, thinking about it. "Jay had told me how dangerous he was but...I never thought...he'd taken someone I cared about and...it didn't matter, I had to save her. So I fought him and..." he made a vague gesture. "Honestly, I don't remember much of it. Apparently, I'm...lucky I made it out alive. But...the doctors say he severed my spine. I woke up here...in the hospital. They don't know why I didn't heal. I always heal. But...not this time."