"I don't know." He sighed and now was searching for her hand. He was glad that she was the first one he was talked to about it all. It was almost bearable when it was just all in his mind, but having it all in the open made him feel too open, too vulnerable. It was very possible that the relationships he treasured so much could have been destroyed with that. He didn't know what he would do if that happened. "Audrey hasn't come. I said I didn't want Fred, that I wasn't ready. She must hate me."