someone took lilja. (lilja) wrote in invol_rpg, @ 2013-01-28 20:40:00 |
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Entry tags: | ! log, chris barbary, lilja agnarsdottir |
Who: Chris Barbary and Lilja Agnarsdottir
What: After the Astrid/Understanding/Benjie threesome, Lilja vents to Chris about her passive aggressive hurt feelings.
Where: Chris's dorm (i am too lazy to find the # but it is second floor)
When: BACKDATED TO 14 January (WE THINK)
Status: COMPLETE
Warnings: Um well Lilja is blowing off steam so I am sorry everyone.
“Okay, I think I do like this show,” Chris said, leaning back against the wall as another episode of Community ended. It had taken her a few, but it was starting to grow on her, and once she convinced herself it didn’t have to be a regular sitcom, she could begin to appreciate it. “But I think I’m done for tonight. Maybe more tomorrow?”
“Sure,” Lilja said, leaning against Chris’s wall. It was nice to have someone to sit with and just watch television shows and just hang out. Lilja didn’t have many female friends, outside of Swan (who had to be nice to her) and Astrid (who was, well Astrid). So having Chris was nice. “We should probably stop now, it just gets better and better and it’ll be harder to stop.”
“Sounds good,” Chris said, looking forward to the opportunity for more later. Closing the screen of her laptop, she turned to the other girl. “So how are you doing? Being back and classes and everything?”
“Ugh, it’s okay I guess,” Lilja said. It had been a stressful two weeks - she didn’t like fighting with Astrid, even though Astrid was ridiculous and then Benjie - she wanted to be his friend, but even though he hadn’t meant to he had unintentionally hurt her feelings by getting with Astrid and Understanding after he said she was pretty. She rested her head on her hand. “I don’t know. I wish I was back home. You?”
“Less than I used to,” Chris said, making a bit of a face. She’d had an intense desire to go home when they’d first gotten to IVI, but since her breakup she didn’t want to quite as much. There was less for her there - not that there was much here either. “What happened?”
“Okay,” Lilja said. She felt like she could tell Chris this - Chris seemed to be an actual girl who was normal and would have a proportionate reaction to things which was to say the complete opposite of Astrid and they had fought zombies together in the weird George Cooper dream. “Don’t say anything though, because it’s kind of complicated and I haven’t really said anything to anyone else.” She paused. “So there was this person - a guy - and we were talking and he told me I was pretty which was really out of the blue but then after everything settles down, he definitely slept with my roommate and someone else. Do you think that’s weird?”
“A lot of things around that are weird here,” Chris confided, glad that she wasn’t the only one to think so. “I mean, people here sleep with everyone, and they don’t really mind that the person they’re sleeping with has already slept with everyone else? And then I feel like I’m the weird one.” She shook her head. “But I definitely think it’s weird. I mean, flirt with someone, but then sleep with their roommate? I wouldn’t want to, I don’t know, be with someone who was with my roommate. Maybe that just makes me a prude?”
“No I mean, that’s like what I think,” Lilja said. “About my roommate anyway. I mean I guess I can’t judge someone for what they did before I dated them or would date them because it’s not like I actually date people or anything.” Or anyone wants to date me Lilja thought darkly
“You don’t date anyone here, or you didn’t at home, either?” Chris asked, curious. Not that her dating experience was all that extensive - countless unrequited crushes, but just the one boyfriend.
“I - am not really someone people date, and before I was here, I was at a Vol school with Mimir, Ari, and Mikael,” Lilja explained. And she was not going to date any of them. Ever.
“You’re totally someone people date,” Chris contradicted. “I mean, I don’t even know what that means. You just have to find the right guy. That’s not a jackass.” Which was, admittedly, less likely at IVI, if the track record was an indication at all.
“Yeah - I don’t think that will happen but thank you for your confidence in me,” Lilja said. “It’s so awkward, I don’t even know what to say to him. I mean he totally had a threesome with my roommate and someone else and I try to be open minded, but that’s weird right?”
“Oh my God he had a threesome?!” Chris said, completely thrown off by that. “I thought you meant like, he was with your roommate, and then with someone else afterwards. Not at the same time.” What was IVI, some sort of weird kinky sex den place? “But no. Definitely weird. We’ll find you someone else.”
“Ugh it doesn’t even matter,” Lilja said, rubbing her forehead. “Most of the people here are crazy anyway. It’s just - I don’t know why you would tell someone they were pretty and then sleep with their roommate. I don’t get it - whatever it doesn’t matter.”
“Can I ask who it was?” Chris asked, curious. “I mean, if you don’t want to tell, that’s fine. Like, if it was Rafael, he’ll sleep with anyone who moves, so that wouldn’t surprise me. And that whole group of guys, really, who are just after a piece of ass or whatever.”
“No it was definitely not Raphael or anyone like that,” Lilja said. She sighed. “Just don’t say anything because he’s on my team and I don’t want it to cause drama. Benjie.” She felt weird telling Chris but she knew that the other girl was trustworthy.
“Benjie?” Chris was genuinely surprised. She knew him a little from the dream, but not all that well. And she knew him from the Coralie incident. But Lilja was right that being on the same team could make things awkward - especially if he was the type to have a threesome. Which, still. Ew. “I won’t tell anyone.”
“Thanks,” Lilja said. “It’s whatever, I mean -” she rolled her eyes. “I’m just - I don’t know, i mean.” She sighed. It didn’t really matter because now it definitely wasn’t going to go anywhere and he was just another person that she had a crush on. They all went away after a while. She smiled at Chris.
“Don’t know what?” Chris asked, curious.
Lilja sighed. "What I should do." She really was not sure even after talking what she should do about it.
“Well,” Chris said, trying to be practical. “What are your options?”
“Ugh, I think I should just let it go, right?” Lilja asked. She wasn’t exactly sure how she felt about Benjie anyway, but she knew she sort of liked him. But she wasn’t sure that after Astrid and Understanding she could look at him the same way again.
“I mean, don’t make a big deal out of it, sure,” Chris said, nodding, trying to put herself in Lilja’s shoes. But she still had to admit... “But I’d... I mean, if you like him? I don’t know if I could like someone who’d been in a threesome with my roommate.”
“Yeah, that’s -” Lilja pressed her lips together. That would take some getting over - more than some really. It would be hard even just going back to being friends, even though they were on the same team. But of course he liked Astrid, everyone liked Astrid better. “You’re right.”
“That’s what?” Chris pried, curious about Lilja’s reaction.
“I think you’re right, I mean,” Lilja said. She was just upset about the whole thing and was having trouble articulating it. But maybe Chris hadn’t meant to, she would never be Astrid. “That’s true is all, for me too.”
“Boys suck,” Chris said, making a face and suddenly thinking about Gio again. It had been a while since she had, which was nice when she realized it, but it’d be nicer if she just never thought about him at all. “I guess we just have to wait until we’re in our twenties and they’re more mature, like my mum says.”
“I guess so,” Lilja agreed. Although at this rate, it would be more like her thirties, but maybe a Vol school in the Australian desert wasn’t the best place for boys. “Your mom is probably right.” Lilja checked her watch. “Ugh I should go back to my room and get ready for bed.”
“Kay,” Chris agreed, checking the time on her phone and realizing that it was later than she’d thought. “More Community tomorrow though, right?”
“Definitely,” Lilja said. “We still have another two seasons to watch.” Lilja stood up off of Chris’s bed and waved before she left the room to head to her own dorm.