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Nathaniel Mauer ([info]the_reverend) wrote in [info]inshadowfalls,
@ 2010-06-09 11:00:00

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Entry tags:elliot stirling, nathaniel mauer

Who ? Nathaniel Mauer and Elliot Stirling
Where ? The Church of Immortality
When ? Wednesday afternoon
What ? Elliot and Nathaniel talk about Elliot leaving the country
Rating ? Low



The Church picnic had been a great success and ever since its conclusion, Nathaniel had been an even better mood than usual. Every day it seemed he got a thank you letter in the mail from a citizen in town for something the church had done and he was expecting an even larger crowd that normal this Sunday at both morning and evening services. While the initial first few weeks had been a little rough for the Church with the vandalism and the harassment, the town seemed to have mellowed and accepted them as something not only permanent but not nearly as nefarious as they had initially suspected.

This afternoon, Nathaniel had met with a contractor who was going to begin adding on a wing to the church that could be used as a halfway house or a homeless shelter. It seemed word had gotten around Shadow Falls that the Church was a place that people who were otherwise lost or homeless could come and stay. It was an opinion he wanted to encourage. Now he was sitting in the Sanctuary, dressed down in jeans and a simple gray t-shirt. He had paint swatches and project boards set up all over, examples of different plans decorators had come up with that he needed to decide on before construction on the addition was completed. He had time, he knew, but Nathaniel was never one to put anything off. Ever.



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[info]the_reverend
2010-06-13 09:46 pm UTC (link)
For reasons Nathaniel couldn't fathom, Elliot really seemed to want to apologize and to hear him say sorry again without wanting comfort made him smile a little bit. But there were far more pressing matters at hand, like the way his partner looked so completely baffled at the kiss, and with good reason too. Nathaniel had imposed a chastity rule on himself, so nothing would detract him from the Church, and was definitely breaking that rule with Elliot now.

"Because," he tried to explain, "we're partners, Elliot. Do you understand? I don't want anyone to ever be closer to you than I am and the other way around. I don't want you to leave me or the Church. I should be the one going to Scotland with you if you go at all. We must always be together."

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[info]elliotstirling
2010-06-14 12:45 am UTC (link)
Elliot looked at Nathaniel, a bit of concern etched into his features, though he was happy to hear those words as well but... Elliot moved closer to Nathaniel again, pressing his hands on either side of Nathaniel's jaw gently. "I understand. But do you understand, really?" he asked boldly. "Do you know what you really mean when you ask things like that? Are you asking for the church, or for yourself?" Elliot asked gently. "I want you close to me because I want it. What do you want, Nathaniel? Really." Elliot asked.

"And I never figured you'd go with me. I'd wanted to bring you more than anyone..." he muttered.

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[info]the_reverend
2010-06-14 01:24 am UTC (link)
The Reverend closed his eyes as Elliot touched the sides of his face, a little smile playing at the ends of his mouth. It could have been easy for him to be confused by that particular line of question, himself or the church, but Nathaniel knew they were one and the same so there wasn't much to differentiate between. "Do I know what it means? Yes, Elliot, I know what it means. I've been a religious man for a long time but I'm not completely dense. I want you close to me because I want it."

Nathaniel couldn't imagine going to Scotland, at least not within the next five years but he couldn't tell Elliot that, not yet. Hopefully what he had to offer now was going to be enough for a little while. "I can't imagine being with anyone else. You or no one."

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[info]elliotstirling
2010-06-14 02:09 am UTC (link)
Elliot smiled faintly, "Well sometimes I wonder about you," he shot back with a playful grin. "You're a good man, Nathaniel. You're sweet and you're bold and you're very dedicated. If it means good for the church, you'd keep me around. Though... I guess technically I'm not the best for the church right now..." he muttered, running his hand through his hair. "So I guess you keeping me around is sign enough." Elliot sighed meekly.

"Why?" Elliot asked after a little while. "Why me? I know I bring a certain level of comfort for you and I know you trust me but..." Elliot walked over to their chess game, picking up the queen and flipping it through his fingers absently as he stared at the board in legitimate concentration. He put the chess piece down in the spot it was before, walking over to Nathaniel's desk and pulling himself up to perch on the very edge of it, crossing his legs at the ankles and staring at Nathaniel with quiet interest. "...Have you ever been in love, Nathaniel?" He asked curiously. In all his two-hundred some years of living, Elliot had been in love only once.

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[info]the_reverend
2010-06-14 02:19 am UTC (link)
Nathaniel only watched as Elliot moved around the office. He seemed antsy, fidgety, and that made him smile, especially because he felt so calm himself. He'd been unsure at first when he'd kissed him but now that he'd done it, that it was over, he knew it was right right thing to do. It was the very best thing he could have done. "Because we're..." He gestured between them. "I don't want to exist without you, Elliot. I know you feel the same way about me." He didn't think he should have to explain it, Elliot should know.

He took a seat in the chair opposite his desk, slouching down as he crossed his arms over his chest. "In love? I'm not sure. I don't think so. I believe I've been more dedicated to the religions I've followed than any one person."

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[info]elliotstirling
2010-06-14 02:40 am UTC (link)
Elliot smiled gently, leaning forward as Nathaniel slouched down in the chair opposite the desk Elliot sat upon. "Because you're a beautiful man," he said with a playful grin, eyes sparking in equal amusement with his body language. "As I sit here, I can think of no one else I'd rather be with even half of the amount of time I am with you," he said honestly, running a hand through his red hair.

He nodded slowly at Nathaniel's admonition, "It's quite a wonderful thing," Elliot mused; his voice was almost dream-like. "Love is," he said fondly. "In all your years... if you've never been in love? I pity you, Nathaniel. Granted, you love this church and you love all it stands for. You love all the people in this church. Love is all you need, I think. I'm sure your love for this establishment may be all you'll ever need. But love for another person? Love as strong and unbreakable and devoted to just one person? It's something else. It's a different kind of love all together," Elliot knew he was rambling like an idiot. But he adored love! The romantic in him saw it as one of the greatest goods. "I've lived a decent life, a satisfying one. And yet, all of the people I've loved... I feel I've only been in love with only one. It is so difficult to find, I think."

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[info]the_reverend
2010-06-14 02:46 am UTC (link)
He definitely loved the church and all his parishioners, if they could be called that. He loved what he did and the people he surrounded himself with. He was happy. If Elliot was gone he wouldn't be happy anymore. Maybe that was love. He didn't think it was the same sort of thing that the other man was talking about now.

"Who was it that you loved?" He asked curiously, wanting to know the whole story, who it was, how they had met. "Were you a vampire at the time?"

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[info]elliotstirling
2010-06-14 03:03 am UTC (link)
He hummed, leaning back a bit on the desk. "I was," he nodded. "It was back in Scotland and I'd been a vampire for only twenty years. I was young and alone because I'd run from my family. My blood lust worried me and I never wanted to hurt anyone, so I starved frequently until the lust in me would force me out. I was miserable. The sun hurt and I was always so hungry. It was one day when the day time lured me out because my hunger was far beyond my hatred for sun. I burnt up quite good, I remember," Elliot laughed. "But that's when I met 'im." He said in adoration. "His name was Patrick. He didn't do much, but he lived on his own and raised a whole herd of sheep," Elliot laughed.

"Told me his brother was a vampire. You know how we keep our kind a secret fer the most part? Well he'd been hidin' the secret fer years," Elliot smiled. "Sweet man, he really was. Gave me his blood willingly and pulled me into his house. I stayed with him for a while and his brother came by and helped me gain control over my lusts. Those were dark days, but I learned and I was more than happy to stay with them." He seemed happy about the story as well.

"Ah, but one day, a group of vampires found 'im out. Didn't like that he knew. I was too young t'save him. I got beat up pretty good tryin' but..." he shrugged. "Killed 'im. Not in front of me, thank goodness for small miracles because I'd never live that down. But that was that. I stayed in Scotland with the brother for a long while, trying to find something good in my life. After that, long after that, of working odd jobs for a little over a hundred years. The church found me and I found a sense of purpose again," he shrugged. "And that was that."

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[info]the_reverend
2010-06-14 03:19 am UTC (link)
"A sense of purpose." Nathaniel repeated with a warm smile, unfolding his arms and resting them on the sides of the chair instead of over his stomach which felt a little defensive all of a sudden. "You should think about that, remember how you felt when the Church found you. Maybe that will help renew your faith."

But that really wasn't the purpose of the conversation and he knew that. "That's the only time you've been in love? Did it take you a long time to get over?" That was one of the benefits of being a vampire, you had all sorts of time to get over heart ache and disappointment. "Do you still remember what he looks like?"

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[info]elliotstirling
2010-06-14 04:34 am UTC (link)
"That's the time that I need to go back to, yeah," he smiled gently. He thought it over and he wasn't sure he'd want to go back to that time-- sure, he'd been faithful and he had purpose and that was a good thing, but the feeling of loss, like something wasn't quite filled yet, it still remained. He assumed the church was enough, but meeting Nathaniel filled that gap entirely-- it made Elliot feel more whole again. He wanted that exact moment back. He had faith and he had Nathaniel. That was all he needed.

"The one and only since then," he nodded slowly, thinking it over. "Took me seventy years, yeah. Right around there anyway," he sighed, actually a little sad about it now, just thinking about it. "Cute as a button, brown hair with a touch of natural auburn, the most intense grey-blue eyes, like storm clouds," he hummed again, ducking his head in disappointment. "Shorter than me by an inch 'er two and with freckles all over the bridge of his nose and his cheek bones when he was out in the sun all day. You don't ever forget your first love, I don't think."

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[info]the_reverend
2010-06-14 11:51 pm UTC (link)
"Well, I'm not sure if I will be your second love, Elliot, or if you will be my first but this is definitely an aspect of our partnership that I would really like to explore." As long as they didn't flaunt it in the eyes of the town. He didn't want the followers of the Church to think he wasn't completely and absolutely devoted to them even if it was true.

"It's good that you have those memories, though. You can think back on them fondly whenever the mood strikes you." And he wouldn't even get jealous. It was highly likely Nathaniel wouldn't ever be that type of man, brainwashing or not.

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[info]elliotstirling
2010-06-15 01:54 am UTC (link)
Elliot chuckled faintly, looking to his friend with an affectionate smile. The way that Nathaniel spoke so... matter-of-factly about the whole situation just made him laugh. It was... cute. It was very Nathaniel-like as well. "Perhaps I'm willing to let you explore it," Elliot said back with a playful look in his eyes.

He shrugged his shoulders lightly, sliding himself gracefully off of Nathaniel's desk as he thought over the concept of Nathaniel's personality; he mindlessly started straightening things around the room as he thought. It seemed very improbable that Nathaniel could be jealous-- his love spread widely among so many people and though, sure, the love Nathaniel had for him was probably a bit different, it was still hard to be solely devoted to one when you've commited to be devoted to many. And that was okay-- Nathaniel wouldn't be jealous, so neither would Elliot... or he hoped so anyway. It was just a thought though, the two weren't... anything yet. But, if they were to become something... it was just something to keep in mind.

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[info]the_reverend
2010-06-15 02:37 am UTC (link)
"I wouldn't be surprised if you were." Nathaniel remained in his seat, relaxed and reclined just a little bit with his legs stretched out and crossed at the ankles. He watched Elliot putter around the room again, seemingly never out of all sorts of busy work. He didn't remember his fellow believer as someone so fidgety and pondered over what could have possibly changed his mood. "I'm looking forward to it, even."

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[info]elliotstirling
2010-06-17 02:01 pm UTC (link)
Elliot paused in his work of straightening up the place before he turned to look at Nathaniel, giving him a curious stare. "What do you mean you 'wouldn't be surprised if I were'?" Elliot asked with a faint start of a smile. He turned and walked over to the back of Nathaniel's chair, placing his hands on the back of it and leaning over Nathaniel's shoulder a bit. "Are you implying that you are so irrisistable that I should be jumping at the chance to let you explore your curiosities?" He asked with a chuckle. "Are you saying that I'd be insane to not crave all that you would give me?" Elliot chuckled, moving a hand from the back of the chair to run over the side of Nathaniel's neck and shoulder affectionately. He gave Nathaniel's shoulder a light squeeze before pulling away, walking in front of Nathaniel instead and peering at him with interest.

"I'm glad to be of remote interest to you to pique your curiosities, Nathaniel," he said flatly, but with a teasing smirk.

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