Greg
Yeah, I think it is. Thank you, it means a lot that you like him. Maybe one day that will even sink in. He does make me feel special, wanted. I'm not entirely sure they know how sometimes.
Not for the first, nor the last, I'm so grateful that you're in my life. Because no matter what you do or knowing that even if you tried your hardest to be perfect they'd always find some flaw, some reason, and they'd never stop. It will only escalate, like it has. Because I want to see the good in people and see that people can redeem themselves, even when I know deep down that it's not possible.
He's a monster.
He's a monster.
A monster built by others. I truly don't think people are born monsters. I think they're made. And I'm sure that he is only one because of his upbringing, and this is all he knew. He wanted to please, to make his parents happy, without question. It doesn't excuse it. Not even by a little. But it does make me pity him almost as much as it makes me fear him.
I know it won't actually stop him. But I did file for a restraining order. Benji's handling it. It's a piece of paper, that he and his friends will ignore. But I had to do...something. Even if it wasn't anything.
I'm going to come over and see Aunt Cissy tomorrow. Draco says she doesn't know. And it'd be nice to get some mum time in. Plus getting to my boys always helps. Blaise will probably be with me, he hardly has left my side. To which I'm not complaining about. Just you know, so you know.