Re: Maria
It's not her entirely. It's just like, everything. You know? Last week was so much work with them heckling and messing with my work every time Natasha wasn't around. And I hate these graves and I have a group of three friends who moved into my dorm so it's never quiet. And it sometimes just feels like I'm back there but the light and noise and people make it all wrong.
And I know I shouldn't be because I'm trying to be likeable. But it's hard not to be angry at people who weren't there and just watched. And not knowing who did nothing makes basically everyone seem suspect.
I mean, I snapped at Sharon two days ago--while she was telling me what I had to do to get readmitted. She could have just dismissed me outright.
And then that cow from last night. And even here maybe I should just let her rail.