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Tweak says, "Hello, pumpkin!"

Amos Burton (churning) wrote in incompletedata,
@ 2017-07-24 13:17:00

Entry tags:

marvel: comics: logan, marvel: comics: max eisenhardt, marvel: mcu: sif, the expanse: amos burton, the expanse: james holden

I'd like to say, publicly, for everyone here to witness, that I'm sorry detaining Pietro and the resultant detention of his sister, Wanda, last night. I take full responsibility for it as the leader of my block in this scenario. I'd also like to apologize for my knee-jerk reactionary aggression towards Pietro yesterday. It was bad of me, to say the least, and I feel genuinely remorseful for it.

I won't make excuses and I won't shift the blame. I take full responsibility as it was my call to make. But any name cleared is a good thing in my opinion, if there's even the smallest hint of suspicion surrounding that name. I am sincerely glad to know that Pietro is innocent and I'm relieved to see that the accusations were wrong.

Pietro - I'll be in the lobby if you'd like to, man to man and brother to brother, come down and shake hands and put this behind us. Water under the bridge. We're both bigger than this, better than this, I know that and you know that. I'd just like to tell you that I'm sorry to your face if you're willing to allow that. It's all on your terms now, though, and I accept whatever judgment you make.

And to Max -

בכל החזיתות שאנו מטילים על אחרים אנחנו מדגימים את הפוטנציאל שלנו, דרך הילדים שלנו אנחנו מגלים את המציאות שלנו. - לורנס קלמן, כדי ללבות עמ 'נשמה

[OOC: The Hebrew reads, "In the facades we put on for others we demonstrate our potential; through our children we reveal our reality," and is from Rabbi Lawrence Kelemen's To Kindle a Soul.]

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	[[Amos]] jameshowlett 2017-07-24 06:33 pm UTC (link)
	Detain Magneto. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Logan churning 2017-07-24 06:34 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, no, after all this I'm not detaining a fellow Jew. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[[Amos]] jameshowlett 2017-07-24 06:37 pm UTC (link)
	I get it - I get it - but he's lost his damn mind. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Logan churning 2017-07-24 06:38 pm UTC (link)
	If you genuinely feel that way, then go to ~~Big H~~ Hotel yourself and have him detained, but I want no part in it. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Amos rocinante 2017-07-24 06:51 pm UTC (link)
	I'm staying with you tonight. If Magneto wants to get to you, he'll have to go through me. And I have a knife. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Jim churning 2017-07-24 06:56 pm UTC (link)
	You're staying with me tonight anyway. And I already told Charles that if Magneto wants me, I won't put up a fight, and I won't. Neither will you. Also, it's my knife. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amos rocinante 2017-07-24 06:58 pm UTC (link)
	What, we just let him kill us? I've grown attached to it, just like I did to my machete. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jim churning 2017-07-24 07:01 pm UTC (link)
	No, you stand back and let him kill me. You stay out of it. You can have my knife if I die and only then. Until then it's still my knife and I'd like it back now that I'm not feeling so stabby. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amos rocinante 2017-07-24 07:02 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, that's not a thing that's going to happen. I'd still feel better if I could have it to protect you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jim churning 2017-07-24 07:08 pm UTC (link)
	Then I'm locking my door and sleeping alone. It's a done deal, Jim. I've made my choice. And give me my knife so I can protect myself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amos rocinante 2017-07-24 07:09 pm UTC (link)
	Then I'm sitting outside your door all night. Fine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jim churning 2017-07-24 07:12 pm UTC (link)
	I know you're the knight - you're always the knight - but chivalry is a gross product of a patriarchal society and I'm not super comfortable with it. Don't put me in this position. I love you, but I will knock you out. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amos rocinante 2017-07-24 07:15 pm UTC (link)
	I just don't want you to die, is that so ba- [...] you love me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jim churning 2017-07-24 07:18 pm UTC (link)
	Of course I do, stupid. And you had to know that eventually I was going to test out that theory about whether or not we stay dead. It's just in my nature. At least someone gets to burn off some rage in the process. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amos rocinante 2017-07-24 07:20 pm UTC (link)
	Well, I love you too. And that is precisely why I don't want you to test out that theory. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jim churning 2017-07-24 07:31 pm UTC (link)
	Then let me have some personal control in this, please? Let me chart my own course. I know you want to protect me, but I don't need to be protected. I need to do this. Please don't get involved, Jim, I don't want you to get hurt too - I don't want any more people getting hurt and if I can keep it to just one, just me, then I've done something good. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amos rocinante 2017-07-24 07:32 pm UTC (link)
	Alright. I can do that. But I still want to stay with you tonight. Just to be with you. If you die, you deserve someone there with you to hold your hand as you go. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jim churning 2017-07-24 07:35 pm UTC (link)
	I always want you with me, Boss. And you did make me an offer yesterday that you haven't made good on yet. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amos rocinante 2017-07-24 07:36 pm UTC (link)
	Tonight, then. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jim churning 2017-07-24 07:44 pm UTC (link)
	It'll give him something good to walk in on, at least. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	homosuperior 2017-07-24 07:29 pm UTC (link)
	לך תזדיין [OOC: "Fuck off"] (Reply to this) (Thread)

	churning 2017-07-24 07:32 pm UTC (link)
	Fair enough. Did Charles pass my message along? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	homosuperior 2017-07-24 07:33 pm UTC (link)
	No. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Max

churning
2017-07-24 07:42 pm UTC (link)

I think it goes without saying that it wasn't personal. It had nothing to do with being foreign, with race or religion. I'm Jewish, my old lady is Muslim, from Iran. I think if anyone has even a hint of suspicion around them they need to be looked into sooner rather than later for the good of the whole. I like Pietro. He's cocky and he's got a big mouth, but I like that in a person.

That said, if you need to hit someone, if you need to take your rage out on someone, I'm a big guy and I can handle it. Take it out on me. That's my deal. You hurt me over this, no one else. It's my responsibility and I'll take it.

And just so you know, someone came to me asking me to detain you and I told them to fuck themselves.

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	Amos homosuperior 2017-07-24 08:47 pm UTC (link)
	Yes, I am well aware how easy it is to sacrifice individuals out of fear in the interest of the greater good. I have no interest in hearing your justifications or assuaging a quisling's guilt over complicity. Your actions speak for themselves. Mine will as well. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Max

churning
2017-07-24 10:12 pm UTC (link)

You assume an awful lot.

I'm not afraid of Pietro, and I don't feel guilty. I own it. I'm sorry for any hurt or misunderstanding it caused, but I don't regret having him detained overnight because it means that he's cleared of all suspicions and he can resume talking about playing kidnapping games with his sister's dolls as much as he pleases and no one has any further grounds to question him on it. I'm glad I did it because it removes any doubt that anyone might have ever had in him in this scenario. What I have remorse for, however, is the knee-jerk aggression I showed towards him because I was hurting and I felt his words were cavalier and that he wasn't taking the situation we're in seriously enough - which had absolutely nothing to do with his being a suspect or not.

You can think whatever you want about me, I don't really care. But it says more about you than it does about me that I'm offering myself to you here, as the one responsible for this, and you're still choosing to take it out on innocent people. The measure of a man, I suppose. Which is fine by me. Doesn't really make any difference in my book.

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	femalewarrior 2017-07-26 10:51 am UTC (link)
	It pleases me that you are willing to admit that you made a mistake. Many people would try to excuse their actions. As you say it is good to know who we can trust not to be the murderer in this situation. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	churning 2017-07-26 11:58 am UTC (link)
	I was always taught that the right thing to do is to admit when you're wrong and apologize for it. The other person is never obligated to accept your apology, but it's the act that's important. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	femalewarrior 2017-07-29 04:35 am UTC (link)
	That is true but it seems over the millennia that many people have not learned this lesson. Many view apologizing as a sign of weakness and not the strength it truly is. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	churning 2017-07-29 04:08 pm UTC (link)
	Humility is a sign of strength, in my opinion. It takes a lot to stay humble. And it's taken a lot for me to learn this. But thank you. I appreciate your comment and the support that comes with it as well. It means a lot. (Reply to this) (Parent)