I am trying to grow. Back there, the only place that matters, I'm trying to free myself from the shackles of Force users. Here, I've reconnected with my father and am attempting to do the same with my mother. But, what, you expect it to happen in a matter of weeks, months? No.
Hotel cost my block rations, it's not criminal if there's no one here worthy of judging me, and none of you have done anything to earn my respect.
I'll ask again. What do you want from me, realistically?