I got engaged to a 'government person' because at the time I was recovering from the idea of needing a strong man's protection, and with an apocalypse coming I relapsed. Also, he was charming and gave great gifts. I'm still engaged to a government person because it isn't safe for me to undo that particular contract right now.
I don't know a lot more particulars than most, but yes, I'm perfectly aware of their cruelty. It affects me as much as anyone, in different ways.