This wasn’t how coming here was supposed to go, but Vienna reminded herself that sometimes life did things you didn’t expect. Nodding her head, she just gave a little shrug as she replied. “Okay,” was there really anything else she could say to that? She had gone of the deep end and stirred up more drama than either of them wanted, but there wasn’t any way to take any of that back. The fight in her was gone though, replaced but this kind of sinking feeling, a worry that she had fucked this all up beyond repair.
She didn’t have the energy to push Noah to say more than he was willing to say, which as of right now just didn’t seem like much at all. Everything was complicated now, or maybe it had always been complicated and she had just been ignoring it all. Whatever it was, she just wasn’t sure her emotions could handle being truly rejected right now, so instead she accepted the silence for what she thought it might be – Noah lacking a response – and not what she worried it was, which was that he didn’t say anything because she didn’t mean as much to him as he meant to her.
Maybe she expected more out of all of this than she should have. Vienna hated the fact that she needed to hear words to reassure herself, words that as or right now she wasn’t certain Noah could say. He had said that he was with her for as long as he would have him, so shouldn’t that be enough? She wasn’t used to this though, leaving things in some kind of unnamed limbo – but life wasn’t what it used to be and maybe this was all Noah could handle and she needed to accept that, or she may risk losing him. Sighing softly, she pushed her hair back behind her shoulders and nodded. “I don’t expect you to change,” she pointed out. Because despite all of this she didn’t want him to think she expected him to become ‘Mr. Relationship.’. “I’m not one of those women that thinks she can change a guy.” She added quietly.
All of this was overwhelming and exhausting. Her original intention of coming by was shot to hell anyway, because they could barely talk to each other right now, so anything physical was out of the question. Plus, sex wasn’t going to fix this. “I agree,” she answered simply. “We’re both worn out, and I think I just want to be alone to think.” Vienna replied honestly, keeping the part where she wondered if ‘another day’ would ever come. Giving him a small apologetic smile, she turned to leave. “Goodnight, Noah.” She was proud of the way her voice didn't quiver and she hadn't allowed the tears to fall yet. Those could wait until she was alone, actually she hoped they would.