Now she had pretty much just been rambly, embarrassed rambling at that. Nick was almost certain that Jax put up with a hell of a lot from her when it came to these kinds of things, though her train of thought was derailed just a bit by the current distraction of his fingers stroking her lower back, because yeah, that sort of felt awesome and sent shivers through her body. “Are you sure it’s your ego?” What the hell? She needed to check her filter, because not everything she thought needed to be said, but apparently she had been distracted enough to let the remark slip through. “I think you’re simply biased.” Nick shot back, sometimes still having a hard time reconciling her own opinion of herself with everyone else’s opinion.
Part of her wondered if it was really fair that she was currently tracing patterns on Jax’s chest, while he hadn’t even once made any kind of move to touch her. Even while she wondered if it was fair, she really didn’t stop herself from continuing the patterns, every once in awhile dragging her nails over the skin lightly and gauging his reaction. Cataloging each one for future reference, and well, partly just because she could. After all she was straddling her extremely attractive boyfriend, so she kind of thought she should take advantage of the position they were in – even if she was still more nervous than she really wanted to be.
Nick wanted to duck her head and hide her face in the crook of his neck again, but something in his expression made her feel less silly about her admission. “I know,” she paused, chewing on her lower lip. “I just wasn’t sure if you’d be extremely frustrated with me if we didn’t go straight to sex,” She liked the idea of exploring things besides just sex, at least until she knew she was ready for that next big step. Having this conversation - even as simple as it was – made Nick feel almost a million times less nervous, and also apparently bolder. “Are you really questioning whether or not I want more?” She asked with a smirk. “Because I’m currently straddling you shirtless, I think that might be some kind of indication of my opinion.” And okay it was probably a little cruel the way she shifted her hips just then.