April Nichols (lostlittlelamb) wrote in immune_ic, @ 2012-11-29 09:24:00 |
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This feeling sucked. Wavering in between helpless and useless, with a hint of uncomfortable every once in awhile. April understood the need to mourn, understood why Rae was upset. But she couldn’t relate, she hadn’t known David long at all and the logical part of her mind just kept saying that if he was dead, well, he was in a much better place now. She didn’t say that to Rae though, she knew well enough to know that wouldn’t be received well by her cousin. Words seemed kind of pointless anyway. It’ll all pass at some point. Or so everyone said. She couldn’t focus on the words on the page in front of her, though. April had thought reading would help her kind of deal with this. But all it was doing was allowing her mind to wander. This whole uncomfortable feeling was just kind of annoying and the lack of anything to say to make Rae feel better was awful. So April hadn’t said much since everyone had returned from the search for David. She didn’t know what to say. There was a little voice in the back of her mind that kept telling her she needed to say something, deal with the awkwardness and just be there for her cousin. “Do you want to talk about things?” April set down the book she had been reading and glanced over at Rae. “We haven’t really talked since I showed up.” Because April hadn’t made much time for Rae, which she knew had been kind of horrible. She knew she needed to make that better. It hadn’t been fair to spend all of her time with Luke, even if she had been beyond thrilled to find her twin again. |