"That's a nice way to think about it," Rae said after thinking about it for a second. "Evolved." Though this evolution was sadder, and she hoped she'd evolve again soon, to a happier one. Maybe it would be easier, now that she'd talked it out with him. She was always better at working her feelings out once she'd talked through them, after all.
Was it different? Rae paused and thought about that for a second. "Maybe." She looked at him and then thought for a moment as she looked at the wall. It was odd to entertain the idea of getting better for someone she barely knew, but if anyone deserved that resolution, it was the one who'd been there for her pretty much nonstop. It'd still be work, but worthwhile work. "Either way. It's time. He wouldn't have wanted me to keep the apartment as, like... a shrine or a way to hold on to him, you know?" So yeah, it was time.
Nodding her head, she frowned. "Yeah. I probably would've... I don't know. But if the trail had somehow come back to you, I definitely don't think we'd be here like this." She'd have accused him, probably yelled and said something mean or whatever else, and they probably would have never grown to like one another like they did. "I did. Thoughtful." And now she was cataloging her brain for something thoughtful to do for him.
She hadn't expected him to press. "Oh." Did she really want to say this? It sounded stupid, especially in the face of the fact that he'd said that he didn't believe in this stuff. But if she wanted honesty, she should probably give honesty back, so she sucked it up. "Just... me. You know? Can't help but feel like I'm kind of a jinx or something, when bad things happen to everyone around me. Even when we're supposed to be safe in here."