"I'm not angry, though." She wasn't happy, naturally. But she didn't feel like she had it in her to be angry. It took too much energy, anger did, and Rae didn't have that in her. "Maybe I will be eventually but... but right now..." she shook her head, then looked at Rory sadly.
Swallowing thickly, she sniffled. "It's... it's hard to believe he's gone," she admitted. "Half the time I expect him to just... come through the door, you know?" But he wouldn't. Ever again. "It's just..." He'd always promised that he'd always be there for her. She sniffled a little bit.
Rory reassured her that her name change and the baby's name change weren't silly and she felt one side of her mouth almost quirk up, but she couldn't bring herself to smile. "It just feels silly. He made me promise to try and move on, so telling everyone 'hey, I'm taken' seems to disrespect that." Maybe she'd change it back someday. But until then... she needed the reminder. Like an anchor, almost. "It really is." She looked around their apartment and whimpered slightly.
"It feels like the best part of my life's already over..."