[Rae was like LEAH WHY ARE YOU SAVING ME? XD]
Closing her eyes, she nodded her head when he told her it was okay not to be okay right now. "But I'm... I need to keep it together," she told him, shaking her head quickly to try to dispel the negative feelings and thoughts. "At least until we're out of here." And preferably after that. He didn't need her falling apart when he'd gone through so much to protect her.
A small part of her wondered what it had been like for him, while she was gone. The determination, the serious expression on his face, was both expected and completely unexpected. She knew, despite how much she wished that he wouldn't put himself in danger for her, that he would do anything at all to keep her safe. If roles were reversed, Rae would've done anything in her power, too. They'd probably have had to tie her up to keep her from going alone. She'd have to ask him later, what the week had been like for him. Morbid, worried curiosity.
Though it was worrisome, that Elliot had to kill a man for her, and though she was shaking like a leaf and trying not to burst out in tears, down in her core, Rae was glad he was dead. He was a monster. He thought of people as expendable and nothing but pawns in their schemes. And... he'd emotionally tormented her while he'd practically literally bled her dry. He deserved to die. She'd never thought that about anyone before, but what he'd done to her and Rory, what he'd wanted to do to Elliot... "He deserved to die," she muttered under her breath, to reaffirm it to herself.
She shook her head when he tried to tell her that it was his fault. "No," she insisted as she leaned into him even further. "Not yours. Not mine. Not anyone but his," she said of the government man. "You... you didn't have a choice. I would have done the same thing, in your shoes." Probably would have emptied the entire clip into his head, logic be damned.
To be honest, she should've known that what she said would be taken the wrong way. "That's not what I meant," she whispered. "I meant... just... you put your life at risk for me. Again..." she smiled sadly. "I'm just... I'm lucky to have you. I can't think of anyone else who would be so willing to put themselves at risk like this for me." Her voice was quiet and sort of tired, but she kept talking, anyway. "I just... it was so brave of you. I love you so much..." she looked up at him, the sadness being pushed slightly back by a loving expression.
The role reversal was amusing in a cruel sort of way. Usually, it was Rae reassuring people that they'd be okay. "It's kind of funny, in a way," she told him, glancing up at him again. "Usually it's me saying that. Guess the reassurer needs to be the reassured, once in awhile, hm?"
She turned to look at him when he reassured her, nodding her head yes. "I know," she murmured. "Thank you." She quickly glanced around for Rory and her face turned down into a frown, but then she turned and leaned against him. "Tomorrow... can we maybe hang out in one of the guard towers?" If she felt up to it, anyway. "Just spend some time hopefully forgetting the rest of the world?"