For a moment his face went truly blank. "Coulda said somethin', I wouldn't have called you that if you told me you didn't like it." Cutter didn't like the thought of having done something she didn't like and her not telling him about it.
He ignored the next part on purpose, there would have to be more thinking and getting used to their relationship before he was comfortable with it. "It ain't like I didn't want it, just... I have no idea how to deal with what happened, you know." Sometimes he feared that since Mona was still so present in his thoughts it would turn into something like a weird triangle. The only loss he had experienced before that was the death of his father, and he had let go of him years before he actually died. Dealing with any kind of loss presented Cutter with a challenge he didn't fell like he could take. "I promise I'll always be honest with you, that much I can do."
"I know you wanted to, an' we talked 'bout survival before. You simply did what you had to to survive. I was kinda hopin' that you ain't just interested in my great people scaring skills." he said, hoping he could cheer her up a little. Cutter knew that the fight with her brother had hurt her, in the end all they had done was try to hurt each other. They were both so close to him that he didn't like seeing them get hurt and he didn't know what he would do if this wen on and on.