Joel uncrossed one of his arms and held it out palm up, feeling somewhat exasperated. "I'm not trying to make this hard on you but you've had years to mull over and think about your feelings for me, without any input from me to begin with - It's a little difficult for me to sort things out in two weeks. I don't want you to have to feel like shit and I'm sorry if my figuring...whatever out...is making you feel like shit but I don't," He frowned. "I don't know what to tell you and I can't exactly outline a time frame for when I'm going to...I don't even fucking know...figure it out or...whatever," He crossed his arm back over the other and frowned at his feet, not even paying any mind to the baseball talk. He felt frustrated that Brand was telling him in one breath that he didn't expect Joel would figure it out quickly and in the next that he wanted, more or less, answers. Or reaction. How was he supposed to even give Brand a reaction? And what about if it turned out to be the reaction Brand didn't want - he would basically be responsible for ending their friendship if that happened because he wasn't going to be able to stand the sad puppy eyes after something like that after all the things Brand said. And then what happened with their current living arrangements and all that?