Sirius could tell he fucked up. But he hadn't wanted to lie either. It wasn't fair to Peter. None of this was. He stood up.
"We're not the Mauraders without you,' he said softly. It was true, even if he hadn't been thinking so the last few weeks. Something had always been missing.
"I didn't say we should find our own thing because I don't want you in the group. It wasn't that at all. I just... I wanted you and me to find our own dynamic. Without having to..."
He should probably just let Peter go. He was fucking this up again. Just like he'd apparently always fucked up with Peter. And with Regulus.
"I won't force you to do anything you don't want to. If you don't want to see me , I get it. I'll give you space, or whatever you want. I'm really sorry Pete."