Sirius immediately felt bad for bringing up Lily, he knew it was a hard subject for James.
"No reason," he said, a little too quickly maybe.
The truth was he'd never felt the things James was describing. At least, not for anyone but James himself. And Remus. He felt all those things for them. But then that was just what friends were, he supposed. James was friends with Lily, after all. But he still couldn't stop thinking about his night with Kirley. How gentle he'd been, how he'd actually made sure that Sirius had a good time. It was so different from all his other experiences... But of course it wasn't love. It couldn't be. Not so fast. And Kirley would probably never want to sleep with him again. No one else had, so why should this be any different? Kirley was just a nice guy who'd taken the time to talk to Siriua, get to know him at least a little before they'd... Anyway, it didn't matter Kirley was one and done. Like everyone else. Sirius obviously just wasn't cut out for love.