Joe Russo (![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} notalongtime) wrote in ![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small} heureuxlake, |
As he had on Saturday, Joe responded more readily to touch, the hand on his arm bringing him firmly into the moment instead of letting him drift off into introspection. "Uh, I—" His throat worked as he tried to right words to express his thoughts while still keeping his story close to his chest for now. Maybe that was the benefit of karaoke, using someone else's words to express what you needed to say. But Joe didn't have lyrics in front of him so he had to dig into a part of him that he never shared.
"I believe in free will as much as I do in fate." Joe had control over so many aspects of his life but, as he had seen in his past lives, if he veered too far off the path that had been laid out for him then fate would step in to course correct. "It just feels like fate has all the real power. I, uh, I guess I wouldn't mind being the one pulling the strings for once."
And there was the song he had to sing. The title just slipped into his head as Ram asked whether his own song had been too much. It was joy and love and a memory of his nonna dancing in the kitchen making dinner. Now that the seed of the idea had been planted, it quickly took root. He sighed; there were even fucking rainbows. "Not too much," Joe said, shaking his head. "Whatever the hell this is, it's real." How could it not be when it was so different than what he was used to?
Joe smiled sheepishly as Ram rubbed his arm. Somehow, Ram made him feel more like the person he'd been before he gained all the memories that came with his curse. He leaned in to close the small gap between them, kissing Ram softly, showing his agreement coming to him more easily than words. "Good," he said shortly, honestly still amazed that he wasn't truly freaking out either.
Putting his drink on the bar, Joe sighed again. "I'm going to go put my name down." He glanced over at the KJ. "But," he said, bringing his finger to Ram's lips, "I'm not telling you what song." His smile turned cocky now. "You said no expectations so, yeah, I'm gonna leave you in suspense."