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honeyedtones (honeyedtones) wrote in heureuxlake,
@ 2024-11-01 18:15:00

Entry tags:

Δ complete, Δ text/email/phone/mail, → dawn miller, → giulia de sanctis, → hannah morgan, → isra jaziri, → maria warrington, → riley phillips, ∞ 2000: 11

Texts: Updates All Around!
Who: Hannah, Maria, Riley, Isra, Dawn, & Guilia
What: Babygirls Find Out & Hannah has questions for Maria & Guilia
When: Sunday, November 3, 2000
Warnings: Possible Discussion of Physical Assault
Completion Status: ~~Ongoing~~ Complete

Text to 👩‍❤️‍👩 Babygirls text chat:Hey! So everything's okay. I'm okay, though it turns out I'm not human (sorry Riley) and am actually something called a siren? Turns out nailing Heart at karaoke was more than magical, heh.

Text to Guilia: I think I'm ready to learn more if you're still willing to be my siren guide. Was talking to a girlfriend of mine and do we age normally? We spent so much of that night at Sunny's literally reliving trauma.

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	Babygirls _notabear_ 2024-11-01 10:47 pm UTC (link)
	Oh no! My last human hold out!! Oh, well, at least none of us are outnumbered now. Seriously? You okay there, H? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: Babygirls honeyedtones 2024-11-01 11:03 pm UTC (link)
	Unless you want to tell us that you've been a werebear this whole time. There hasn't really been an adjustment period yet. Dawn and I chatted about the ridiculousness of it all, and I've got someone I can talk to. Not a therapist, but she's helping. Definitely not the conversation I expected to have at karaoke. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Babygirls _notabear_ 2024-11-01 11:25 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not a bear! Honestly? I have no real idea what it means that you're a siren, but if there's anything, just... say the word, yeah? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Babygirls honeyedtones 2024-11-02 12:18 am UTC (link)
	I can only imagine how many times you've had to say that exact phrase XD. I've got something called a Song, and I still don't know what that means. I think when I sing I can make people feel things but I'm as lost as the rest of you on what's actually possible. So yeah, I have no idea and I still feel like me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Babygirls honeyside 2024-11-02 12:27 am UTC (link)
	So kind of like an empath but with music? There might be witches locally who could help. Is this another Gabriel situation where somebody did this to you? ~~Please let us~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Babygirls

honeyedtones
2024-11-02 12:51 am UTC (link)

I guess? Honestly, I might've messaged everyone because I have no idea what questions to even ask. I was human up until that night!

Yeah, this Song has the ability to change a person into a siren. I know when it happened it was before I moved to Tarrytown. Maria and Riley know the story, but I was attacked outside of one of my Brooklyn clubs. Guy was an asshole, but I should've at least been in a coma if not dead. Threw me up against a wall and hit my head hard. That's the last thing I remember until the Song. I have no idea who she was or why she might've chosen me.

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	Babygirls honeyside 2024-11-02 01:08 am UTC (link)
	~~You and me both.~~ I don't know if witch technique would work for you, but you can at least ask them what they can do with it? Maybe you can do the same things in different ways. She chose you because you're fierce and awesome, duh. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Babygirls dawnoftheday 2024-11-02 02:28 pm UTC (link)
	Most of the time it feels like I don't the right questions to ask until I actually need to ask them. I know I said it before, but I'm so glad you've got someone to talk to about it all. 💖 (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Babygirls mariawarrington 2024-11-02 05:55 pm UTC (link)
	WAIT A MINUTE. THAT NIGHT? WHEN I SAW YOU? I HAD NOW IDEA BABY I AM SO SORRY. THERE WAS NO ONE THERE THOUGH. OMG. I'M SORRY I'M TEXT YELLING BUT OMG. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Babygirls honeyedtones 2024-11-02 06:04 pm UTC (link)
	None of this is your fault babes. I only barely remembered it with a bit of probing questions. I figured as much. I'm okay if I never meet her again. I don't think I'd have you any other way ;) As for her reasoning I doubt my penchant for throwing assholes out of clubs and away from my friends had nothing to do with it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Babygirls mariawarrington 2024-11-02 06:07 pm UTC (link)
	I would've ripped a throat out. You know it's a woman? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Babygirls

honeyedtones
2024-11-02 06:22 pm UTC (link)

The only other siren I've met is a woman so I'm guessing it's a woman. I have no idea if that's how sirens work, but two out of three seems like good odds.

Save that energy for someone who deserves it. As far as I can tell there's nothing terribly evil or malevolent about this new nature. And I can't think of anything that might be an issue moving forward.

I'm still me, Maria. Just now I've got some weird powers to figure out.

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	Re: Babygirls dawnoftheday 2024-11-02 06:29 pm UTC (link)
	I asked someone I know and they said sirens are women. But I didn't ask whether there's a male version, like incubi are to succubi. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Babygirls mariawarrington 2024-11-02 06:52 pm UTC (link)
	Incubi is a weird word, fyi. Am I the only person here who, like, understands most of what their Nature comes with? We should have like a study group or something. Powers Practice? Is that a thing? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Babygirls _notabear_ 2024-11-02 07:08 pm UTC (link)
	It is, but so is petrichor. And no, I am pretty sure I understand what my nature comes with, even if it's thrown a curveball or two at me. And I vote that yes, you should have a study group, figure out how all of your natures interact! Please? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Babygirls honeyedtones 2024-11-02 07:19 pm UTC (link)
	Dawn? I think if this is a matter of natures interacting we need to make sure you're comfortable with it. I'd like to know more about what I'm capable of before putting anyone in harm's way either way. But we need to know how to help each other too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Babygirls dawnoftheday 2024-11-02 07:22 pm UTC (link)
	I think I'm okay? Nothing happened when we met up so we're probably okay. It's honestly kind of reassuring to know that so many of my friends could take me out if I get too succubiy. (I know that's not a real word, SHH!) (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Babygirls mariawarrington 2024-11-02 07:39 pm UTC (link)
	Another weird word, babygirl. And I swear I'll take any of us out - me included, OBVI - if we ever get too fuckin' weird. Well, weirder than we already are, AM I RIGHT? <3 (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Babygirls dawnoftheday 2024-11-02 09:15 pm UTC (link)
	Now it looks like we're all our own special type of weird! (Reply to this) (Parent)

Giulia + Hannah

giuliasings
2024-11-02 06:44 pm UTC (link)

I am absolutely willing. I was hoping to hear from you. There is so much you should know, that it will be better to learn second hand rather than from experience.

No, we do not age. I was turned over a hundred years ago. We also don't have periods and don't actually need to eat. As far as I know, we can't get pregnant and are not susceptible to human diseases and disorders.

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Re: Giulia + Hannah

honeyedtones
2024-11-02 07:12 pm UTC (link)

Well all that is good news though I am still partial to food. And whiskey. How does alcohol affect us?

I think I'm ready to learn what it actually means to be a Siren. I texted my girlfriends to let them know. We're all a bit dysfunctional, but we look out for each other. Another one of them was recently turned and she's still trying to come to grips with it. I don't want to be like that, stumbling around not knowing what I am and what to expect.

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Re: Giulia + Hannah

giuliasings
2024-11-02 07:32 pm UTC (link)

In my experience, alcohol is not good in large amounts. I've found that it can make me lose control of the magic, and as I'm a professional singer, that can get chaotic.

I've been a Siren for a long time, but what I know about being one, I've figured out as I've gone along. Our purpose, from what I've gathered, is to exact vengeance for the victims of violent crimes, usually women who have been attacked like we were. When the magic calls, it can be overwhelming and almost impossible to resist. It will transport you to the woman, to witness her death, to find her killer and end him. There really isn't a gentler way of telling you about that part.

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	Re: Giulia + Hannah honeyedtones 2024-11-02 08:15 pm UTC (link)
	So moderation on the whiskey. I rarely drink to get drunk, but a glass is nice and I can't say no to that. I don't like feeling chaotic. Can't I just save the woman before she dies? That just feels torturous why give us all these powers if we still have to watch someone die before enacting revenge? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Giulia + Hannah giuliasings 2024-11-03 12:32 am UTC (link)
	Yes, I have a self-imposed two drink limit, but you should definitely decide what works for you. ~~Before Sam~~ The only way I know that a Siren can save a woman once the magic has called, is to turn her into a Siren. I won't deny that it's an incredibly painful part of the process. I will say that in recent years, the magic has called to me much less. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Giulia + Hannah honeyedtones 2024-11-03 12:40 am UTC (link)
	I could keep to two drinks. I don't drink and drive either so it's a rare occurrence. So either way someone dies. That's horrible, but I don't know if I could turn someone into what we are. Is it okay to say we? What does the call feel like? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Giulia + Hannah

giuliasings
2024-11-03 12:57 am UTC (link)

Of course it's okay! We are both Sirens; even though you only just learned about it, doesn't make you any less of one. I really don't know if there's a way to avoid death when the magic calls. If there is, I haven't discovered it. I also have never turned anyone. While I am grateful for my life now, I spent decades struggling with it, with everything I lost when I was turned, and I wouldn't wish that pain on anyone.

It feels like there's a hook in my stomach, tugging on me, pulling at me, and it's like I can't breathe or think about anything but her pain. It overwhelms everything, and then it pulls me away, magically transporting me to her, like some kind of teleportation, except I never know where I'm going to end up.

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	Re: Giulia + Hannah honeyedtones 2024-11-03 01:06 am UTC (link)
	That's enough to go on. It would be too easy to say I know what to expect then, but I know I'd be lying. There's nothing that will be able to prepare me for this. But if I feel that particular tug then I hope you'll be okay with me calling you after it happens. I just don't know. Is there anything we can do to ease the suffering without turning someone? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Giulia + Hannah

giuliasings
2024-11-04 12:30 am UTC (link)

But at least you know now that it will happen eventually. That should help you cope with it a little better. And yes, please do call me after if you need to. It's a lot to process, and I am here for you!

I tend to hold them, give them what little comfort I can as they pass, reassure them that their perpetrator will pay for it. It's never felt like enough, but it's all I know to do. Sometimes I Sing for them, something calming and peaceful, but that can be difficult to manifest in those moments.

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Re: Giulia + Hannah

honeyedtones
2024-11-04 12:38 am UTC (link)

...

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Thank you. I'm surprised it hasn't happened yet. I don't know how I would've handled it if it had. Without you I think I would've been lost. Thought I was crazy. I think the power would've destroyed me.

You've already given me so much and I haven't even felt that pull. It's terrible that the strength is built out of tragedy, but this more than I could've even imagined. I'll remember to reach out when it happens. It's the uncertainty that has my mind racing.

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Re: Giulia + Hannah

giuliasings
2024-11-04 12:45 am UTC (link)

You would have managed. The instincts would have taken over, but afterward would have been difficult, when you were coming down from the magic and the adrenaline and left wondering what in the world just happened. My first time was personal; I didn't know what I was, and the Siren who had turned me also hadn't stuck around to explain, but she hadn't exacted vengeance for me either. So I took my own revenge. It wasn't a conscious choice, it was entirely instinct. ~~My parents, on the other hand~~ I'm glad that you won't have that confusion.

I've gone a year or more without being pulled before. It's been months since the last time I was. You can't let yourself be overwhelmed with not knowing when it will happen. I know that's easier said than done, but it's probably best if you just keep living your life as you have been.

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