This is wonderful. As always, you made me laugh and you made my heart break for both of them, several times over. I agree with rahirah that Buffy probably wanted that as much as anything else she wanted that year (whether she knew it or not). I love that Spike could see her even when he had no idea who she was, and that she could finally almost be honest with herself about what she wanted from him. Reading fic like this reminds me why I got hooked in the first place. Thank you.