It was nice to watch Buffy gain more insight into how she feels about Spike. And with it a measure of peace. But I kept wondering if Spike was feeling the same way.
Until you write that scene from Spike's point of view and show me something different, I have to go with my gut. I keep feeling that he's still not there yet. I just think he's decided to stick around because it would hurt Buffy too much if he checked out. And he wants to know how it's all going to turn out.
He seems to be looking for something that he hasn't seen or felt yet. And he seems to be holding back and protecting himself. Maybe he's thinking it's not really love she feels as much as it's a kind of guilt . He doesn't seem to be as hopeful or optimistic as William used to be. Something is missing in him. And it's not just his memory.
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And let's not forget, what did happen in that alley? Watching his friends die in battle just doesn't seem like enough. Unless he was trapped for a lot longer than we think? You will tell us eventually?
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