miracle (miracle) wrote in harrylovesdraco, @ 2007-08-14 12:02:00 |
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Heartbreak is not just a figureof speech, it’s a pure, physical feeling. You can actually feel yourheart pulsating pain through your very veins and there’s nothing youcan do to stop it. I feel like I’m suffocating inside myself. I can’tbreath. I can’t think. And all of this pain is because I hurt you.
“Well,if that’s the way you feel then why don’t you just fuck off back toVoldemort and serve him like Daddy wants?” I screamed at you.
Youdon’t even answer me, you’re not shouting anymore. I can see thosesilver eyes cracking and I realise that you’re silently broken. I movetowards you, to take your hand, but you flinch away from me as thoughI’m poison.
“Draco…I…I’m sorry,” I whispered, my voice quivering.
“Idon’t want your apologies, Potter,” You sneered at me, your voice coldand full of hate. At that moment, I felt my heart shatter and I felt myworld spin. It wasn’t your words that made my stomach feel like it wasfull of lead, but empty at the same time, it was that voice. That voicethat you used to use.
“Draco, please…I love you,” I pleaded, my voice breaking as tears threatened to escape my eyes.
“Ifyou loved me, you could never say that,” You snapped, and as I lookedup into your eyes I thought that my world had disappeared. Those silverdepths no longer shone with an almost ethereal light that only you had,they were now dull and lifeless. Empty.
That’s when my worldended and there was nothing I could do to right it again. Evendefeating Voldemort could not fix my broken heart. I guess there’s justtoo much that time can not erase. After the final battle, no one couldfind you, you were assumed dead. And now, I’m alone because of thosewords I said to you. I’d give anything to see you one last time. To letyou know that I loved you. That I still love you. But, I destroyed youso completely that not even I can fix you. And now I’m broken, for alife without you is no life at all. You know what, it hurt so much tohurt you, I’d rather die.
I know Ron and Hermione worry about meas I rarely leave my house anymore. I’ve become some sort ofrecluse….Harry Potter, the Saviour of the Wizarding World, is now anempty shell, a coward locked in the confines of his house.
Aknock comes at my door and I frown. Who would be calling on me at thishour? People never turn up unexpected. My Gryffindor curiosity gets thebetter of me and I open the door. And there you are. You’re standingbefore me with so much beauty that it takes my breath away.
“Draco!” I gasp, and step forwards. I stop myself however, seeing the look in your eyes. They were hard and unforgiving.
“Are you going to let me in Potter?” You ask, with that infamous Malfoy drawl.
Istand aside, unable to speak as you brush past me. I can smell you, Ican almost taste you. A taste that I have so long forgotten. I closethe door and you slam me against it hard, pinning me there. My breathcatches in my throat and I tremble slightly. I’m not scared of you, Ideserve anything you’d do to me.
“Potter, it’s been five years since…” You begin, but I cut you off, unable to hear your words of hate.
“I know, and I’m sorry Draco!” I say so quickly, that it’s just a blur.
“Potter!”You snarl, and I instantly fall silent, flinching slightly, “It’s beenfive years since we spoke last. What you said killed me, I love youmore than you could know and that’s why I have to tell you this….”
Ifrowned and looked into your eyes, unable to read them for the firsttime since we realised our feelings for each other. You leant forwardsand your lips were suddenly on mine. My head spun and I felt your armswrap around me to support my weight. At first your kiss was soft andtentative. I tried desperately not to deepen the kiss, but I needed totaste you again. Soon, you had slipped your tongue into my parted lips,brushing lightly against my tongue. You then completely devoured mymouth, kissing me until I couldn’t think anymore. I felt lost, butstrangely found all at once. You pulled away and looked at me.
“I need you to survive…” You breathed.