RP: Things I can't understand... Date: July 14, 2001 Characters: Teagan and Sam Location: bookstore in muggle London Public/Private: Private Summary: Teagan and Sam talk (and she expresses her thanks for him cluing her in about the nonsense deal). Status: Complete
Teagan had called Sam earlier and they had agreed to hang out. To avoid awkwardness, they both suggested someplace outside PAM's reach, which was both the stomping ground and where they members would conceivably be. Well, a bookstore certainly did fit that. She smiled as she browsed the books, letting her hands guide over the spines without reading the titles that faced her. The last week and a half had been strange for her. She wasn't sure why. Not exactly at least. John and she had talked on the phone a few times with meaningless chitchat, but never met. She wasn't sure she wanted to. He'd left her stay that night, despite what had happened, but she'd gotten up and left before he woke.
After what they'd done, she'd think that even she herself should have waken him or something. Called the day after? Neither had called the day after, thankfully. They had waited a few days, which was fine with her. She didn't want any strings and she didn't want this awkwardness that seemed to be present between her and John. She had no regrets, but wondered if he did. Did he regret the fact she had started it and he'd finished it, so to speak? Did he regret... well, could he regret that he had slept with her knowing she was a virgin at all? Maybe he really didn't do virgins and had gotten caught up in the moments. She frowned, not wanting to think that way. He'd been into it. She knew he had been into it. Hadn't he been into it? If he had, did he expect it to happen again? Did he want it to happen again? Did she just suck that bad that night that he didn't want to see her? It was strange that that was her worst fear, that he'd sleep with her and then stop talking to her. Well, maybe it wasn't entirely true, but it certain had changed things between them and not really for the better.
Did she want it to happen again when it wouldn't be such a mess and painful for her? Yes. Yes, she did. And she wanted it to be with John again. But she had no idea what to do to make it happen. If John was turned off by her now, it's not like she could get him to do it again, to prove to him she could make it worth his while or if she could even make it worth his while. The thought just made her frown deeper, unsure what to do. This wasn't something that she could just tell someone else, get advice on... 'how do I seduce the guy I want to sleep with again after I got him into bed once only to disappoint him and turn him off?'. She actually chuckled at the idea of just saying that sentence to anyone.
She grabbed a book off the shelf at randomly and flipped it open in the middle, not even looking at the words before her as she waited for Sam to show up.