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Tweak says, "Lost in my own lil world <3"

Casper Kim (casperkim) wrote in gooseberry,
@ 2017-01-22 19:13:00

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If you hear crying heading back to camp or doing rounds tonight, don't fucking follow it. It's the thing in the woods again.

[Warded to Asher]

I made it back. I'm fine. I told you ~~I'd~~ it'd be fine.

[...]

I don't know what to say. I feel like a idiot. I don't know what what happened. I don't know why I was so afraid or what I was running from. ~~I don't know why the fuck I was crying. I don't c~~ Except. I guess this is like last time, isn't it? Just with fear instead of sadness. ~~So why does it feel so much wor~~

I'm sorry.

This thing needs to leave me the hell alone.

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	Prefects casperkim 2017-01-22 10:35 pm UTC (link)
	Fine. I was insulting. I shouldn't have been. But I'm still right. And I don't think it's too much to ask that this information stays among people that aren't going to go chasing after 'ghosts'. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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firstposition
2017-01-22 10:39 pm UTC (link)

I do not disagree with your sentiment. I know we need to control people going out to search for these things. But we are all allies here.

[Casper]

Will you tell me? I just want what happened to be on record. You can trust Quinn... but I understand that just because I trust her, it does not mean you are going to just because I say so.

I will only share the information if it is an emergency. I promise.

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	Rafael\|Casper casperkim 2017-01-23 07:59 am UTC (link)
	I was willing to trust Quinn. I still am if she can just agree that this stays in the ward. But, apparently, either she knows she can't keep her ~~fucking~~ mouth shut or she's all up in arms because I insulted Park. It's a joke. [...] You mean all of it. Not just where. Right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Rafael|Casper

firstposition
2017-01-23 09:21 am UTC (link)

Take this as advice from someone who ends up in a lot of unnecessary arguments. Sometimes you have to recognize when the discussion is getting out of hand because you presented it aggressively. Rephrase the question directly. She doesn't disagree with you, but you have made this a situation where she has to defend herself. [...] I often need people to remind me of this also.

Yes. All of it.

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	Rafael\|Casper casperkim 2017-01-23 01:27 pm UTC (link)
	I didn't say anything that wasn't true. Quinn's overreacting. [...] And this really stays between you and me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rafael\|Casper firstposition 2017-01-23 09:30 pm UTC (link)
	She is not, but this has gotten out of control. You are making this into a fight when it does not need to be. You and me, we are going on rounds as soon as you finish explaining to me what happened. Step back from arguing with them. Yes. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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casperkim
2017-01-23 10:24 pm UTC (link)

~~But I'm not the one tha~~

Fine. Fucking fine. It's done. All right?

[...]

I was walking back from the Lodge tonight and I heard someone crying around the bend in the trail. I kept walking, but when I got around the curve there wasn't anyone there. Except then I heard the same sound coming from the woods. I thought something might be wrong, so I followed it again and the sound moved again. I was about to keep walking into the woods, but then I realized that the crying was too [...] consistent. Like a recording on a loop. The same hitching breath, the same sob, the same sniffling over and over again. And then it was like last time. I was suddenly afraid. More afraid than I've ever been in my life. And I got the hell out of there.

I ran to Ribbonfin. I don't know why, since I was closer to Ebonhide, but I did. Asher was the first person I crossed paths with and he helped me calm down. Kept me from making a damn fool of myself. [...] At some point, I'd started crying. I don't cry. I haven't cried since I was ten years old. And I don't run away when I'm afraid either. ~~I'm not a coward.~~ After I felt normal again, I came back here. I guess that's it.

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	Rafael\|Casper firstposition 2017-01-23 11:19 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you. [...] That is disturbing. I am glad you are all right. I do not even know if I want to speculate what that means. I dislike being in the forest. Hearing things like this reminds me why. We should walk near Coppertale tonight. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rafael\|Casper casperkim 2017-01-23 11:44 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. [...] I'm not sure there's a point to speculation anyway. Everything we know can point in at least two directions. I'm not afraid to patrol there, Rafael. We can walk wherever we're assigned to walk. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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