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Tweak says, "It's true. I am."

Casper Kim (casperkim) wrote in gooseberry,
@ 2017-01-22 19:13:00

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If you hear crying heading back to camp or doing rounds tonight, don't fucking follow it. It's the thing in the woods again.

[Warded to Asher]

I made it back. I'm fine. I told you ~~I'd~~ it'd be fine.

[...]

I don't know what to say. I feel like a idiot. I don't know what what happened. I don't know why I was so afraid or what I was running from. ~~I don't know why the fuck I was crying. I don't c~~ Except. I guess this is like last time, isn't it? Just with fear instead of sadness. ~~So why does it feel so much wor~~

I'm sorry.

This thing needs to leave me the hell alone.

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Casper | Asher

guthriegazette
2017-01-22 10:17 pm UTC (link)

I'm glad you made it back, but I still think you should have let me walk you home ~~since all this shit has been happening to you~~. I'll leave that alone, though.

Look, don't feel like an idiot. It's... obviously whatever it is can do something to our emotions. Like you said, it's like last time - it says nothing about you or your emotional fortitude or whatever. It can do something to us. Even putting that aside, though, what you heard is pretty emotionally overwhelming and, frankly, fucked up. Don't be sorry.

I am beyond pissed on your behalf, so sorry if I sound snippy. It just seems like it's messing with ~~you~~ everyone. I've avoided the anonymous post until now but I feel like I might cave this month and look so I feel less out of the loop.

[...]

~~I'm glad you came to me.~~

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casperkim
2017-01-23 08:10 am UTC (link)

You're right. You should leave it alone.

Emotional fortitude. That's a laugh. [...] I know you're right. But this is the second time and I still have no fucking idea how to stop this thing from getting to me or what it wants. I don't know if it's actually empathic and we're feeling what it feels or if it's just trying to manipulate us or if there's something else going on. I've never heard or read about anything like this. I don't like it. And I don't know what to do about it and I like that even less.

So long as going to the Anonymous Post is all you do, Asher. I don't have the energy to worry about you too. Promise me you won't get pulled into this bullshit.

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guthriegazette
2017-01-23 09:24 am UTC (link)

The last thing you need right now is to feel bad because you were a little less than composed, so blah blah blah feelings are normal and plus it essentially forced them on you. It's not worth feeling bad or annoyed or stupid about what your emotional state was.

[...]

I really don't like it either. The induced emotions are seriously unsettling, regardless of how (or why) it's doing it. And I'm hesitant to even try to figure out what it wants given that it'll probably just encourage it. Maybe it's worth a chat with Vector. And maybe Lilywhite has some good tips on how to withstand emotional transference or whatever this is?

I promise, I'm not going to go running out into the woods looking for trouble. You don't need to worry about me. I'll keep any investigation I do to reading.

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Casper | Asher

casperkim
2017-01-23 01:39 pm UTC (link)

Between this thing and the goddamn billywigs and [...] everything else, composure has been a lost cause lately anyway. But being that scared and running away and fucking sobbing all over you? That feels like a low. If my roommates ask about my eyes, I'm dropping out.

Agreed. I don't like anything having this kind of control over me us. And I doubt that understanding the motives of something inhuman will be as simple as some of the others seem to think. [...] Maybe I will talk to Ms. Lilywhite, though. The Occlumency trainig hasn't been any help with this, but maybe there's something else she can suggest. Or maybe I'm just shit at Occlumency.

Good. Finally someone with some sense.

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guthriegazette
2017-01-23 05:03 pm UTC (link)

~~Yeah but the billywigs were awesome~~

I know it was...intense, to put it mildly. It's a low that's in no way your fault. You know that, though. But... yeah. At least it's done now, and ideally your cabinmates won't be obnoxious. I'm a little worried about the others who are running off into the woods looking for answers, but there are only so many warnings you can give... your charges aren't really into that, are they?

I think it's definitely worth bringing up with Lilywhite - I doubt you're shit at Occlumency, and maybe there's some general DADA ideas she has about this whole mess. Now at least we're aware that the emotional pressure wasn't just a stand-alone incident, so we can look for tactics to deal with it. Also, if you get anything useful please share with all of us nerds who are only slightly regretting neglecting those sorts of skills...

I guess at least I've got some sense.

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