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Casper Kim (casperkim) wrote in gooseberry,
@ 2017-01-22 19:13:00

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If you hear crying heading back to camp or doing rounds tonight, don't fucking follow it. It's the thing in the woods again.

[Warded to Asher]

I made it back. I'm fine. I told you ~~I'd~~ it'd be fine.

[...]

I don't know what to say. I feel like a idiot. I don't know what what happened. I don't know why I was so afraid or what I was running from. ~~I don't know why the fuck I was crying. I don't c~~ Except. I guess this is like last time, isn't it? Just with fear instead of sadness. ~~So why does it feel so much wor~~

I'm sorry.

This thing needs to leave me the hell alone.

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	Prefects qnnc 2017-01-22 09:45 pm UTC (link)
	That was uncalled for, Kim. I asked so those of us with patrols tonight are better prepared. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Prefects casperkim 2017-01-22 09:49 pm UTC (link)
	No. It wasn't. I'm not going to be responsible for Park and the rest of them finding trouble if they're reckless enough to go looking for it. And that's not an answer. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Prefects qnnc 2017-01-22 09:55 pm UTC (link)
	Yes, it was, but I have better things to do than get in a pointless argument about it. Who I decide to share the information with is irrelevant; I asked so we can carry out our duties more effectively. This has nothing to do with ~~our resident Shithead Holmes~~ my friends. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Prefects casperkim 2017-01-22 10:12 pm UTC (link)
	Everyone on this ward has the sense to listen; if they hear the crying, they won't follow it. That's all the information that's needed to get through rounds tonight. But the fucking junior investigators over there don't. So get as indignant as you fucking please, Cunningham, but I'm not saying anything until you answer my question. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Prefects qnnc 2017-01-22 10:23 pm UTC (link)
	Don't hold the information hostage because you have issues with my friends. That's absurd. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Prefects casperkim 2017-01-22 10:36 pm UTC (link)
	This has nothing to do with having issues with your friends. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Prefects qnnc 2017-01-22 10:50 pm UTC (link)
	Just tell us where you heard the crying so we can tell apart the denizens of the woods from freshmen who just got dumped. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Prefects casperkim 2017-01-23 07:57 am UTC (link)
	Just tell me this stays on the ward and I ~~fucking~~ will. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Prefects qnnc 2017-01-23 09:08 am UTC (link)
	It was never going to leave the ward ~~dumbass~~. Since when do I go around sharing that kind of information left and right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Prefects casperkim 2017-01-23 01:23 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know you, Quinn. I don't know what you do or don't do. And, normally, I don't care. But you've spent the last few minutes refusing to answer a simple question, so what was I supposed to think? [...] It was on Bear Trail. Around where the path to the Grotto splits off. Satisfied? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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qnnc
2017-01-23 01:32 pm UTC (link)

How about 'Gee, maybe I'm overreacting and this fellow Prefect only asked where where my spooky encounter happened because all she wants is to make sure the other Perfects are aware of what's going on if they happen upon it while they're on rounds!' ~~Christ~~ Kim, you don't need to handle this with CSIS-level suspicion. And don't judge my ability to take it seriously by the poor decisions of some of my friends.

Yes, thank you. That's literally all I was asking for.

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	Prefects casperkim 2017-01-23 01:51 pm UTC (link)
	I'm overreacting? All you had to do was answer the fucking question the first time I asked it and neither of us would've had to waste our time with this. But instead you had to get defensive and superior. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Prefects qnnc 2017-01-23 01:55 pm UTC (link)
	Seriously? The first reply you wrote to me included the words "your idiot friends." But whatever, I'm done here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Prefects casperkim 2017-01-23 02:19 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. I was a prick. Fine. But that doesn't make the question invalid. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Prefects ijustknowit 2017-01-23 07:59 pm UTC (link)
	Why are you like this? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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Park's defusion specialist. You can put that on your healer apps lmao -

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	Prefects firstposition 2017-01-22 10:13 pm UTC (link)
	Casper, you can express that concern without insulting anyone ~~as much as I a~~. This is not a fight any of us need to waste time on. Explain what happened, and at least tell us the trail it was on. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Prefects casperkim 2017-01-22 10:35 pm UTC (link)
	Fine. I was insulting. I shouldn't have been. But I'm still right. And I don't think it's too much to ask that this information stays among people that aren't going to go chasing after 'ghosts'. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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firstposition
2017-01-22 10:39 pm UTC (link)

I do not disagree with your sentiment. I know we need to control people going out to search for these things. But we are all allies here.

[Casper]

Will you tell me? I just want what happened to be on record. You can trust Quinn... but I understand that just because I trust her, it does not mean you are going to just because I say so.

I will only share the information if it is an emergency. I promise.

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	Rafael\|Casper casperkim 2017-01-23 07:59 am UTC (link)
	I was willing to trust Quinn. I still am if she can just agree that this stays in the ward. But, apparently, either she knows she can't keep her ~~fucking~~ mouth shut or she's all up in arms because I insulted Park. It's a joke. [...] You mean all of it. Not just where. Right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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firstposition
2017-01-23 09:21 am UTC (link)

Take this as advice from someone who ends up in a lot of unnecessary arguments. Sometimes you have to recognize when the discussion is getting out of hand because you presented it aggressively. Rephrase the question directly. She doesn't disagree with you, but you have made this a situation where she has to defend herself. [...] I often need people to remind me of this also.

Yes. All of it.

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	Rafael\|Casper casperkim 2017-01-23 01:27 pm UTC (link)
	I didn't say anything that wasn't true. Quinn's overreacting. [...] And this really stays between you and me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rafael\|Casper firstposition 2017-01-23 09:30 pm UTC (link)
	She is not, but this has gotten out of control. You are making this into a fight when it does not need to be. You and me, we are going on rounds as soon as you finish explaining to me what happened. Step back from arguing with them. Yes. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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casperkim
2017-01-23 10:24 pm UTC (link)

~~But I'm not the one tha~~

Fine. Fucking fine. It's done. All right?

[...]

I was walking back from the Lodge tonight and I heard someone crying around the bend in the trail. I kept walking, but when I got around the curve there wasn't anyone there. Except then I heard the same sound coming from the woods. I thought something might be wrong, so I followed it again and the sound moved again. I was about to keep walking into the woods, but then I realized that the crying was too [...] consistent. Like a recording on a loop. The same hitching breath, the same sob, the same sniffling over and over again. And then it was like last time. I was suddenly afraid. More afraid than I've ever been in my life. And I got the hell out of there.

I ran to Ribbonfin. I don't know why, since I was closer to Ebonhide, but I did. Asher was the first person I crossed paths with and he helped me calm down. Kept me from making a damn fool of myself. [...] At some point, I'd started crying. I don't cry. I haven't cried since I was ten years old. And I don't run away when I'm afraid either. ~~I'm not a coward.~~ After I felt normal again, I came back here. I guess that's it.

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	Rafael\|Casper firstposition 2017-01-23 11:19 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you. [...] That is disturbing. I am glad you are all right. I do not even know if I want to speculate what that means. I dislike being in the forest. Hearing things like this reminds me why. We should walk near Coppertale tonight. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rafael\|Casper casperkim 2017-01-23 11:44 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. [...] I'm not sure there's a point to speculation anyway. Everything we know can point in at least two directions. I'm not afraid to patrol there, Rafael. We can walk wherever we're assigned to walk. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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