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Tweak says, "Doh!"

Casper Kim (casperkim) wrote in gooseberry,
@ 2017-01-14 00:16:00

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Haven't done shit today, won't be able to sleep tonight, and the fucking cabin is still sealed up. Great.

[Warded to Asher]

I'm sure it's all Kumbaya and handholding over there. But how're you managing?

[Warded to Katya]

I think we need to talk. Can I see you tomorrow? [...] If we're not still stuck.

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	Katya & Casper catseyenebula 2017-01-14 03:31 am UTC (link)
	I'm perfectly fine, promise. You deal with your own shit. I'm fine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katya & Casper casperkim 2017-01-14 04:51 am UTC (link)
	~~You're not fine.~~ [...] What's the point in lying to me now, Katya? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katya & Casper catseyenebula 2017-01-14 04:53 am UTC (link)
	I'm not lying. I'm just fine now. Shit went to shit, I handled it, now I'm fine again. What more is there to say? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katya & Casper casperkim 2017-01-15 10:18 pm UTC (link)
	[...] This is pointless. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Katya & Casper

catseyenebula
2017-01-15 11:02 pm UTC (link)

Casper, I'm being serious. Shit was really really bad over break, I've not been doing that great for a long time. I'm trying to get better, I'm trying to at least inch toward being happy again, why don't you believe me? They've already decided to throw me at Merrill, I'm trying to be okay. When I say I'm fine, I'm getting there. I'm trying to handle things better. How is that hard to understand?

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	Katya & Casper casperkim 2017-01-15 11:27 pm UTC (link)
	Trying to be fine and being fine aren't the same fucking thing. And you know that. And I know that you always pretend for your little Azurcrest friends that you're fine when you're not. You've told me that. 'Everything is rainbows', right? What am I supposed to think? [...] Threw Merrill at you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Katya & Casper

catseyenebula
2017-01-15 11:32 pm UTC (link)

I'm doing my best. I don't want to be upset and depressed all the time. My mom basically told me to start taking my medicines again, which I guess I should have been anyway but you know, they suck. I just trying to be okay again, I don't want to be awful.

Yeah, I have a meeting later with him. Apparently my shit has gotten out of hand or some shit. Keep it quiet.

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	Katya & Casper casperkim 2017-01-16 12:13 am UTC (link)
	[...] You have medication? And you haven't been taking it? Katya. ~~What were you thinking?~~ Why would you do that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katya & Casper catseyenebula 2017-01-16 12:15 am UTC (link)
	I always feel weird on it. Like a zombie. So I don't. Would you want to be a zombie? The doctors don't know what they're talking about anyway. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katya & Casper casperkim 2017-01-16 12:36 am UTC (link)
	No. I wouldn't. But have you told them this? I don't know much about No-Maj medicine, but it's dangerous to just stop taking something like that, isn't it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katya & Casper catseyenebula 2017-01-16 12:41 am UTC (link)
	I guess, maybe? Don't know. I feel gross on it but whatever. As long as I take them I guess I'll be okay. My mind doesn't hurt as much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Katya & Casper

casperkim
2017-01-16 12:50 am UTC (link)

~~Don't be so fucking dismissive. I'm trying to h~~ Katya. If you don't like how that shit makes you feel, you need to tell to someone. Maybe there's something they can do. Or maybe you shouldn't be seeing a doctor at all; maybe a healer would be able to help. But whatever you do, you can't just stop this and start this like it's nothing. You'll fuck yourself up.

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	Katya & Casper catseyenebula 2017-01-16 01:00 am UTC (link)
	I know, I know. I just don't like admitting I need help. You know that. I'm back on them thanks to my mother as much as I hate it, I've had problems. I know I have or had just I'm trying to get better. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katya & Casper casperkim 2017-01-16 01:39 am UTC (link)
	I know you don't. Neither do I. [...] I still think you should talk to your doctor. Or Mufferaw. Or someone. Because if the meds make you feel that bad, you'll stop again when this gets too hard. There have to be other options. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katya & Casper catseyenebula 2017-01-16 01:42 am UTC (link)
	I know. Just, I don't want to go in and be like hey my head is all screwed up. If I get too bad again, I'll go have a talk. I just had to deal with my first intervention first I guess. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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