That's fine. ^__^I'm very glad you took the time, and approached this from the angle sexual orietation rather than just gender issues, because that is the part of my life it affects.
I've been interested in psychology for a long time, so a lot of this I already knew. It's just the act of getting up and changing your views. It takes so much courage... I almost feel like it's not worth it when I think about what's facing me if I try. It's like, if I see the light then I'll be transported to a world where I need to justify myself to others. Lol... maybe not so, but it's my (not so hidden) fear. Perhaps that is why I cling to the images that are given to me instead of trying to create my own.
That last paragraph was very encouraging even though at first I didn't like it. Haha... I came to the conclusion that yes, I need to re-evaluate my relationship with men... but also that I need to reevaluate my relationship with women also. I might not be and I might not like what I thought I did. I wouldn't have come to think of this without you, so I thank you. :)