Seth tried to calm his raging emotions with some deep breaths, he couldn't lose his cool, he could never lose his cool. He was in charge and if he broke down the team would break down too and they'd make more stupid choices and more people would die. He control slipped slightly when he felt Gabby touch his face and talk to him in that gentle voice. He met her gaze with sadness in his eyes.
"I just hate this Gabs," he said in a harsh whisper, "I hate all of it. I mean...none of them should have died today. I made a rash decision and rushed head on without even a plan. I was stupid to think it would be easy...it's never easy...and I should have known that of course they'd know I'd want a precog a practiced one." He thumped the wall with his fist slightly as he turned and leaned back against it. "The kid was fifteen, fifteen and he believed so much in our cause he sacrificed himself for us...fifteen, he had barely even begun to live and now his life is over and it's my fucking fault." He ran his hands through his hair,
"Sometimes I think it would just be easier if I just surrendered, gave myself to them with the promise to show mercy on the rest of you. I'm the leader I should be the one fighting the hardest, making the biggest sacrifices, dying for the cause, not him not that kid." He sank to the floor and his breathing became even more labored, "What scares me even more is how these young kids are becoming killer, they're having to pick up a weapon and fight to survive. They see Viper and how easy it is for her and how ruthless she is and they try to be like that. And I know she's your friend Gabs, but...she worries me sometimes. Today she shot and some of the soldiers running away...they weren't a threat but she took them down anyway...I always say don't hesitate, but only when it's necessary...and that wasn't necessary."