Emily heart froze in her chest at his words. He kissed her because he wanted to...he wanted to...there is was...the first time a guy kissed her because he wanted to...and it was Calvin. Her best friend gave her her first kiss that meant something and she had liked it. She had kissed him back and had she not realized it was him and if she wasn't worried about changing their friendship she would have continued kissing him. She liked kissing Calvin, part of her wanted to kiss him again. But Katie, he loved Katie and Katie had loved him at one point and probably still did in some way. They could never be anything, not only would Katie hate her if it ended badly she'd lose Calvin and she'd be alone and without friends. She couldn't risk that.
Emily bit her lip again and realized it tasted like him, she wasn't supposed to know what he tasted like and she wasn't supposed to want to taste it again. What was wrong with her, she had just told herself that she should just move on from this and forget it just like he said. "But what if I don't want to forget about it," she said in a whisper, not fully realizing she said it aloud. She met his eyes briefly before reaching for her guitar,
"I'm gonna go, I...I just need to think about some things."