Emily Elwood (tearslikerain) wrote in genome_project, @ 2011-07-23 15:55:00 |
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Entry tags: | emily elwood, july 2011 |
Who: Emily (then later Jimmy)
What: Emily gives away her innocence
When: Saturday, July 23rd, 1 pm
Where: Emily's room then the park
Rating: High (mentions sex)
It was here, the big day, after this she no longer would be innocent. Well, no, that's not why she was doing this. She was just getting the bad part of one's first time over and done with before she really gives it away to someone she cared about. Everyone kept telling her that she was stupid for making this choice and this guy wasn't going to treat her well. What did they know. She never told them it was Kevin. Sure he was a jock and had dated other girls before, but it wasn't like he was one of those guys who flaunted their experience to everyone. It wasn't like he was the male version of the old Josie Allen. Also he had been so sweet when he accepted. He'd be sweet, Emily knew. Now just to wait until everyone left.
Her dad always left around the afternoon to have lunch with some colleagues then went to City Hall to do something involving his work. She never paid much attention to it. Also with the weather being so warm she was sure Bethany and Simon would go to the beach today. Speak of the devil, Simon popped his head into her room and asked if she wanted to go with him to the beach. She smiled at him, he was still so innocent, so sweet, she prayed he never grew up. Emily shook her head and declined but asked if he would mind taking Irulan with him since she was trying to focus on one of her poems and Irulan wasn't helping her concentrate. Honestly she just didn't want Irulan around when Kevin showed up. She'd probably attack him since it would sound like he was hurting her mommy. Simon beamed, he loved Irulan and since her dad wouldn't let him get a dog Emily was happy to share Irulan with him. Once Emily heard Bethany and Simon shout their goodbyes she set her notebook aside and texted Kevin to tell him to come over.
He arrived quicker than she expected and was surprised that once the door to the front of her house was closed he started kissing her. Well, getting right to it she supposed. Emily had thought they might talk first and ease into it, but this was just to get the bad part over with. It wouldn't mean anything so mine as well just get it done as fast as possible. He was a pretty good kisser which was a good thing, also this was the first time a guy kissed her because he wanted to, not because of some magic spell, but she wouldn't count it as her first real kiss, this was just business. She let out a little squeak when he picked her up and carried her up the stairs to her room, which wasn't hard to see with her name spelled on it in big letters. Being carried wasn't half bad she supposed. Kind of romantic, like a prince and a princess. He laid her gently on the bed then went back to kissing her. Being so inexperience she wasn't really sure what to do besides kiss him back, his hands were wandering down her arms and sides occasionally brushing her face. So she decided to let him take the lead in this and shut her eyes and kissed him back. Her had to stop her hands from slapping his hands away when he cupped her breasts through her shirt. He would be feeling much more soon so she needed to get used to it now. He was a little rough with them but maybe it probably was the last time that happens was caught in the haze of some love spell so it felt better. Also maybe she wasn't enjoying it because she didn't know Kevin all that well. But she wasn't going to enjoy it anyway, the first time was never fun for a girl. Her heart started racing when his hands started pulling her shirt up, the full extent of what was going to happen hit her and she was...scared. It was normal she knew to be scared about one's first time, so she just tried to calm herself by taking deep breaths when Kevin went down and started laying kisses on her stomach. He pulled her up from the pillows a little roughly pulling her shirt over her head and quickly unclasped her bra pulling it away. Out of instinct she covered herself with her arms. He didn't seem to care as he pulled his own shirt over his head. He certainly wasn't hard on the eyes which was a bonus she supposed. He pulled her arms away and pinned her back to the bed as he kissed her again. He released her wrist to play with her breasts again, she winced a little as he squeezed a little too hard. That was probably nothing compared to what was coming so she said nothing. He moved to her neck as his hands when down to remove her jean shorts. Emily stared at the ceiling her eyes wide as her breathing became labored, this was it, it was coming and she was terrified. She grasped his shoulders and tried to hold in a little whimper of fear as he removed her panties as well. She heard the sound of him undoing his own pants and slipping them down his legs. She heard the tearing noise of the condom package and then he reached down to pull the sheets up over them. She felt it against her leg and barely had time to react before he pushed it in. She opened her mouth in a silent scream as tears burst from her eyes, it hurt, it hurt much more that she had expected. He didn't even pause for a second and just continued pounding into her. She stared at the ceiling in horror, this was horrible why did she decide to do this, this was wrong, so wrong. It seemed to go on forever then he seized above her and let out a low groan then slumped over her. After his breathing slowed her rolled off her. She rolled over on her side away from him her insides burning.
"So we done?" He asked. Emily stared out the window completely confused and said in a small voice,
"Yeah...thanks." She heard him pull on his clothes and leave. The front door slammed and she winced. That was it...it was done. She didn't feel any different...wasn't she supposed to feel different. She sat up and pain shot through her, it still hurt. If felt as if someone had stabbed her. He was supposed to be patient, be gentle...how could she have been so stupid. She got up and grabbed some fresh clothes. Some long jeans and a big long sleeved shirt that had belonged to Evan. She pulled her hair back in a messy ponytail then took a moment to look over her appearance in the mirror. She looked awful, her mascara had smeared around her eyes and she felt the dried tear marks on her face. Besides that...nothing. She didn't look any different. She had always heard in movies and tv shows that people felt or looked different once they lost their virginity. She felt nothing except broken and sore. She stripped her bed and stuck them in the wash not wanting to have to explain them to Bethany. She grabbed her keys and made her way outside. The heat from earlier had faded as clouds rolled in. She knew it was probably her doing but at that moment she didn't care. Her powers were the least of her worries.
Emily made her way to the park and sat on the edge of the fountain in the middle of the park. She hugged her arms as if to shield herself from everyone's eyes as she simply stared at the ground in front of her. What was she supposed to go from here. She thought after losing her virginity everything would be different, that she'd look and feel different about everything. If anything she was more confused then ever, she was stuck in this moment and didn't know how to get out of it.