Yeah I know, you're disappointed, I know, it was really dumb of me. Drinking doesn't solve anything it just...it just really hurt. I mean...did I mean so little to him. I thought...I thought...I mean I told him he didn't have to wait for me or anything but...was it dumb of me to hope that he would...to hope that maybe once I told him I was ready that we'd be together and be happy?
But yeah Toni's really nice...surprisingly so, he says I'm pretty and stuff, and he's 19, also he's confusing I mean I don't really fit the bill for most girls he goes after. I mean he likes girls like Josie and stuff. But being told you're pretty is always nice.
But yeah, I was wondering if it would be okay if I threw a party for the end of school and like invite the whole high school and say that they can bring people who are older if they want? Like Josie will probably want to bring her boyfriend Alan. Also I want Penny to be able to take her...boyfriend or whatever Bast. Also I would like to invite Toni.