A small smile quirked the corner of Emily's mouth at Calvin's comment about hurting Sam if he hurt her. "That won't be necessary Calvin, but the thought is noted. If he doesn't feel the same way about me it's not like he has control over it. No one has control over who they fall for. Like I had no control over falling for Jacen and he had no control over not returning my feelings and falling for Annie."
At that thought the wheels started turning in her head. Everything that had been swirling around her head was finally starting to line up and come together. She nodded at Calvin's questions, "You're right, singing is always about being exposed, but I still want to finish it, I feel like it needs some more. I have some thoughts, just gotta figure out what fits, trial and error I guess." She twirled and strand of her hair in thought, "No...being silent...I wouldn't be happy and risk...I just have always run away from it you know. Ever since the hurricane...I can't...I wouldn't let myself be put in that situation again. I thought...I couldn't be selfish and put what I wanted before the safety of the town. But now..." she paused as a little smile came onto her face. "I never really thought that I'd find someone who was so work the risk. Sam's such a great guy...I want to be with him...so much...he makes me happy Cal...really truly happy. But..." everything in her head clicked together, "I can't be with him just yet. I still have to make sure I have a hold on my powers, I'm close...I can tell. Also I have to totally get over Jacen. I know it's been months and I said I ended everything, but...it still hurts to think about him you know...him with Annie. It wouldn't be fair to Sam...to either of us if I started something with him while I still have these strong feelings for Jacen. I want Sam and I to have an honest chance and with these feelings still around. We really can't."